A Bad Leader

Everyone was having Holiday...
(i mean my gang la..)
since i'm the one taking I.D course...
no holiday for me..
so i'm having my class during 3.30 p.m.
(i should happy right? but a little bit tired la...)
haha...

i'd gather 9 of them though they are haiving vacation....
but only 6 of them turned up...
other was mainly stick to their own grandmother's reasons..
got class but never try to attend..
and don't even have any idea..
and one of them even pretended that he didn't receive any message from me...
and slept for all day long...
(the reality is so cruel..and these had thaught me that...never judge a book by its cover..and you'll never know who is he/her really is....)
*sobs*

moreover...
the discussion about lantern in the morning became tea time or better known as lunch time....
i'd been waited them from sharp 11 a.m. ...
they seems lik never turn up as it is still morning...
lol~
ok...
fine...

after had our lunch....
" i'm sending my gf to ktm...later i'll be joining you guys in the library..."
Chris said....
"we are having class in 1 p.m."
the other 2 said by the time close to 1....
wtf~!
really have to control myself...
before becoming a volcano...
lol~

left 3 of them...
four of us went up to library and start our discussion...
i have my idea and sketch with me...
one of them did research and came out with idea which not really work...
the second one was like supporting without making any sense sometimes....
(can see that how much researh that you have done...lol)
the last one?
was awesome....
sitting there....
doing nothing...
but just listening...
(maybe caused of she not really used to talk....be confidence eh...)
Chris came after everythings were almost settled...
then we went to get our material that planned in a list...

to have a good start...
we have to well-planned for every single detail...
but i was trying something different...
though i'd planned....
but i used the idea given...
without proper consideration...
to give her a and so called 'existance'...
was trying to involve her more into the group...
hopefully she will be there for the making of lantern...
but things isn't going that way...
she refused to come without any notice...
how do you think what i feel at the time?

they all came to my place after my class...
and we started to work on with the plan...
and now we are only having the material that suggested by her...
and she refused to come without any inform...
hence..
it ended up with half following plan and half were discovered while the making...

result wasn't important anymore...
just that all of us that involved in the making of our lantern overnight had enjoyed the process...
(sounded more like comforting myself..lol~)
and i realized that who is the true one during the critical moment...
i experianced that things isn't going that fluent compare to our secondary group work...
and these is what the outside world is having...
the only one can life is the only knows how to cope with the situation but not work according to what he/she feel...
this what i wanted to say...
but what i've done?
indeed a bad leader this time...
lol~

time hitting 6 a.m.
lastly...
the lantern had done...
its still looking good...
*laughs*
compare to other groups...
'handicap' is the best word to replace it appearance...
its really embarassing as you holding it...
this what i feel by the very first time with my project...
lol~
(really depressed..)

lied on the bed and half-slept for not more then 4 hours...
then went to class the next morning~
*yawns*

P/S: DO NOT judge a book by its cover, or else you'll be in trouble...DO NOT put too much trust on friends that just knew for few days or sympathy, it will really pull you down...an apple a day keeps doctor away...an oppinion a day keeps bustard away!!!!

am i having the chance to be with you?