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Making fun of people is real fun... making fun of people that you hate is more fun... people that u making fun of is real fun.... and you think its fun by showing those ignorant face infront of the people that you making fun of... he didn't know... by letting you to do anything and willing to fooled by you without complaining... behind the scenes that whispered and laugh out as rude as you can do.... he still keeping silence... and you think he is stupid... and as guilty as you continue... and you feel real fun! when its in more bigger group you form... and the more you enhance the trouble and making worst of him... you feel wow... its so delight... yeah! you have revenged... and you really feel so as you could poking holes on his back and laugh as loud as no body business... hell... be mature k?? why don't try do it infront of him? by letting him know? since he manage things in so terrible.. and kill him infront of the crowd by took away his pride by one shot? you'll be more happy right? but... you didn't... but just wish to do it silently.... and gives him a combo... and giving all those "reasonable" reasons to those listeners... until the day you sensed that he is commenting... in the way that... you are disadvantage.. and you come out with those annoying faces... and you put on a mask now... come near to this prey... and acting with your monkey faces... acting angry... acting sincere.... acting innocent... and doing in the way that... you are OPEN-minded.. in fact... you are afraid of what people think of you... and what people talk behind you... and started to act to exaggerate and spread whatever and adding in some enhancer into the story.. come on.... you are adult... cant you manage to do things in your age? no one really cares who are you... but the innocents... pity them and shame on you. but... he didn't blame you.... cause the one should blame and sad of... what'd built your character... your manners... and where's your conscience? he is wondering... maybe you didn't realize? who knows? you know the main different of human and animal... can you tell me? probably not... its human may manage to overcome the emotions... but animal will only totally conquer by those fxxking emotions... and hence have no humanity... its sometimes really happen to us... as rational was M.I.A.. and which we can't blame... so there is no blame for you?? and by not admitting this fact.... yea you are slowly apply with this matter of fact... and now you start cursing like no one.... and wanted to revenge... yea... you are welcome animal... with "s".... (sorry if you think you are) its so sick when seeing those human acts like an animal... which think herself were so right and doesn't really look deep in herself... and materialistic aswell... and likes to be the slave of money and pride... and dying with easy life... and slowly become blind... so he is wondering as you say you are happy... and come out with those superficial theory as what is friend and what friends are for... and if i not wrong.. you are denying now... you will always think you are most important as compare to anyone... and think yourself is always right... and you'll never see things from other people's angle... it reflects on how sick you are... how immature are you... every dream may stop one day... hope that day is still early for you... what i'm trying to say is... i'm so stupid.... to think that it is always a better day tomorrow... and world is always so peace... and slowly i fell sick... sick of you people... it'll always hurt when i share my feelings with you people... and you'll never think of why i so care... firstly i hate to create enemy... now i'm sick of making unwanted friends.... nothing to blame... but blame to my immature positive thought... and i've grow with every pain... this world is so fair... only people with darkest heart stay longest on earth... people with positive thought dies early... and now i realized... its real fair... cause people who die later than anyone else suffers the most... which he/she didn't considered that at the early age... i chosen to die at last... so no one is suffer... but you guys never know...
learn to accept & appreciate things... but not always running away from it... you'll take it somehow...
A friendship may sink as either one side has lost its weight....

P/s: i had carried thousands of experiment on myself... its once in a while i was so tired by making all the people around me happy and satisfy with me... and in the end of the day i discovered a matter of fact... its so true... "in your life, you may not able to satisfy all the people around you, but you can chose to satisfy on 2 category of people to you. first was your friends and second was the category of people that hate you for no reason. so why not just to try your best to satisfy the big category of friends that easy going with you, and ignore the small particuler group that always digs out your pain with stupid reasons, whats wrong?" and " you can fool all the people at a time, but not all the people at all the time...." ...and again im thoroughly exhausted now with this small particular group... and i think its worth that i'd exposed myself with no self-defended... and it tells me how important are you to me... and how much value do you have... i'm relief now since i can delete you from the friend's list of mine... with no any wonder =) thank you for what you'd do to me by the early days... i do really appreciate... and unsolved misunderstands in you were the big murderer. that's all i can say and nothing i can do.

now i understand what is hate all about.