A 龟's Life

我回来了。

2010-04-30T11:05:00.000-07:00

就这么低潮的一段时间，就只有吉他陪我度过。

也许在人生最低潮的时候，安慰有需要的人，就是如何让自己重新真正的在跌倒后爬起；就算再跌也会懂怎么才会跌得最美。

没有亲身体验，你永远都不知道你有多好，多差。

最难受的不是知道自己有多烂，多糟，而是不知道自己有多好。

错过了感情，就只剩下想给你浪漫而学的吉他。

我，开始专注于自己，应为我开始领悟到我需要学会更爱自己，好让下一个我能爱上的人更幸福。

我的天使，飞吧，飞得高飞得远，累了就在我这儿休息。

我累了就得咬紧牙根继续寻找新的生命动力，要不然怎么让你靠？？

我回来了。

Astonishing photo produced by Li Wei(China)

2009-09-16T02:55:00.000-07:00

Note: The following action photos are not Photoshopped.

The breathtaking photography is taken by an artist(Li Wei) from China smartly uses the wire and angle of shooting in order to create such unbelievable action in real life.

Standing on the cloth~the last one was half hung seems coming down from the flying cloth.

Playing football in zero gravity on earth.

Unique group photo.

Stay up or down?

Human paper-plane.

Touch the sky.

Ouch.

stunt~

Aqua-Gymnastic?

....

Free fall.

Brutalism.

Human flight.

Never SEE YOU again. 不见。

Pull me up. Or. Football? Xp

P/S: Unbelievable right? Actions in the photo say it all.

These are what we called "Number/ License plate"~ Xp

2009-09-16T02:31:00.000-07:00

I'm just wonder how do they came out with this funny idea~
hehe...evil*

If theres a "Satan".

Here might has a "GOD" too~

License plate too small?

Caution: The following article is rated 18 sx~(For Malaysia Only) Xp

Ass orgy~ Sweat!

"AssHOLE" You will never realize this if you put it upright~cool! xp

Girls-U?

What you think is what you see.

G-spot over.....

STFU!!! Xp

yea its really OMG & WTF!!!????

I HEART your Butt too! Xp

P/S: Kinda speechless for these Plates~ Xp enjoy.

2009-09-15T15:45:00.000-07:00

Smile~=p

to Someone... Maybe you are right, I'm not understand you at all...
Sorry ya... For those words that really bothers you which i didn't realize...
All i want... is just want you to find back yourself...
want you to know avoid doesn't change anything but pressure you...
as times goes by....
the load on your shoulder will increase....
and this probably might hurt you deeply without realize...
Finally you'll gave up...
hide yourself....
and totally lost yourself...
And slowly we will never see you anymore....

when the time you don't love yourself...
anything bad might happen....
and things will getting worse and never a U-turn will come after it..
facing the prob is nothing about solving the prob....
but just you got to stop hesitating, worrying and all negative thoughts....
and start to accept the fact..
things that happening to you now...
achieve things a little by little....
not to rush yourself for everything that you cant finish on the spot...
just like before you get to the top floor of the building you got to pass through the 1st floor, 2nd floor....
and the following floors right?
now the situation is like the elevator is not working...
and you got to use the staircase to climb up to the 100th floor...
so you are now choose to fear yourself with the 100th floor and thinks that you'll never get to 100th floor as the elevator had stop forever...
cant you just take a 1st move on to the emergency staircase?
achieve a level by level...
from there you also can get out from the emergency door and check whether the lift whether it is working???right???
action speaks louder then words....
now the choices are in your hand...
whether you want to take this challenge or prepare to give up....
Well... maybe you still think that you need sometimes...
yea... you can have it.... but don't take it too long ya!
try walk through the stairs slowly...
I will just beside you. talk to me as you feel so. Don't ever think that every words of you might pressure me. I can manage that unless you suspect me. Don't give up as we didn't give up you. Love yourself before anyone do. Don't think that keeping everything in yourself is a way as you can't manage it. If you still treat me as your friend. Do not so welcome with me. Since I'm ready for you.

Cheer up friend.
As the sun will rise. Theres always better tomorrow.
I will always remember the days we had spent together. outing. Genting. Your house. Hospital. and every words from you. Please come back k? I don't want you to lose yourself. Since I never think of losing you this friend.

P/S: The moment that I never forget. The heartbreaking news that happened to you. I'd spent my off working hours with you throughout the night in the hospital. i stayed awake though I'm tired. afraid of you to wake up in the middle of the night and no one to talk to. Feels like crying with you. But i can't. Cause i know i got to be stronger. Friends came in bunch stay overnight with you during the hardest moment too. You promise us not to give up. You have achieved very well. And why you give up now? does it really worth you to do so???? Don't break the promise k? Don't fear yourself with the future. Don't bother yourself with the all your pass. Don't fuck up life in the present. Just do what you can do. AND. you are working besides study its already tired, don't mess up yourself with those stupid thoughts. Since its a great start and you took the 1st move. means you are strong. I'm proud of you. keep it up. As you feel sick. Just cry it out loud. Just tell me as you need a shoulder. Then wipe off your tears and continue. trust me. It is not going to be forever. there will be a sunny day. Remember we are in the rain with you under the same umbrella. GAMBATEH! you can do it. I'm counting on you.

To: My friends.

2009-07-25T17:10:00.000-07:00

Its nearly suffocated....
losing my mind badly...
My soul is running away from my body...
I'm trying so hard...
yet I'm getting lazier every once I feel I nearly losing it...
I know I shouldn't gave up...
It's seems like I'm fighting between the evil and angel in me...
Who am I???
Does it really important???
What I want from the beginning of the plan???
Am I changed???
I hope I'm not...
But some of you claimed that I'm losing my sense of humor...
Indirectly way saying that I'm getting bored....
It wasn't me....
yes...
I admitted that yea...
Recently I weren't feel so good...
and started to questioning myself...
I think I got to stop...
before I get mad...

P/S: I realized that I'm so uncomfortable to remain myself at the point of balance... I'm getting lesser concern on the people around me... and I feel so hollow every time I think bout it... and maybe that's why recently I were tended to be so forgetful... Sorry friends.... Just leave me sometimes to keep myself at low profile... I promise I'll back on track A.S.A.P. ... No worries for those who worry me...You know who you are...=)

I got to look into myself for a little while more. Before I get emo. =) I'm ok.

Heres the stopping of my insomniac days.

A Tribute to Michael Jackson

2009-06-27T00:38:00.000-07:00

Yes, He is a legend.

-time can grow up ones and send off ones-
Michael Jackson had passed away!
It is sad to hear that a king of pop had left us...

live concert at stadium merdeka 26-27 October 1996.

MJ reminds me about a day in october 1996....
MJ hold a concert at stadium Merdeka....
My dad brought us there....
we walked around the stadium and was trying to see whether there is a cavity to peek in into the stadium to see MJ!!!!!
the vibration of bass is awesome! the music is loud and the echoes can be heard in the boundaries of 500m or more i guess!!!
I remember there are fans of MJ even climbed up the trees beside the stadium to find a better spot to see MJ!!!! wth Xp
I felt to do tat too!!! lol XP
but my dad didn't allowed so!!!
my dad carried me up and put on his shoulder....
to allow me this extremely short kido to enjoy his sight or more ~
"can you see?" my dad asked.
ya ofcourse!....
but i couldn't see the real MJ...
but i saw the wide screen in the stadium...
the colours that appeared in the screen was red(gold), white and black...Xp
the song that he is singing still playing in my head...
"they don't care about us"....
~all i want to say is that they don't really care about us.....~*(a sentence in the lyrics)

times fly~
13 years gone...
now I'm 19....
MJ left in a sudden in the age of 50...
life no regrets....
Rest in peace mike,rumor ends....
You'll be alive as your music plays...

P/s: human may cry if his/her beloved ones had left... some cry because they didn't appreciate when he/she is alive... some cry because they cant adapt to the sudden change in life... how about you?

& there is always a situation...
A friend or a family member was still alive but seldom or didn't meet up for long....
we know that he/she still alive....
so we won't cry but miss...
always bare in mind that...
he/she still alive...
so we can meet up or do something for him/her next time....
so again and again its another next time....
until he/she finally left us...
we cry....
so does it make any difference?
the next time is abit too late?
or the next time is always be the best reason?
or you'll think about this next time?
up to you.
Sorry if i'm wrong.
Do the best for everynow, we might not know what will happen next.

Pencil Colour

2009-06-05T11:25:00.000-07:00

Just got back all my previous sem assignments.
These are some of the pencil colour drawing that i've done and the development from the 1st day to the end of the sem... enjpy! XP (as if u feel its good la! haha.. comments are most welcome =) )

These are some of the practices we carried out during the 2nd sem:-

1st pencil colour drawing that i ever did on the yellow coloured manila card and by using 3 colours (orange, dark brown & white) and touchup with white poster colour.

From this apple.. we started to with many layers of colour and more consideration on the colour...

After many layer.

Its a lil rough, especially the cloth.

Its being smoothen by more layer.

This is my life sketch with colour pencil in 1-2 hours time.

1st interior rendering with colour pencil. (perspective mistakes & didn't consider about the material of the interior used.)

minor perspective mistake on the rightest table. lol.

Final drawing. i only satisfied on the right sofa. Xp~ lol.

Comments from the lecturer: Do consider about the material used for the interior ( the express of strokes in the interior sketch) & study the usage of colour on different material.

P/S: I thought i was colour blind by the 1st time discover in this kind of drawing Xp~! after all, i realized that, we just have to trust and be confident of what colour you see and apply on the paper! Practice makes perfetct and yet i'm still stuck at the strokes for every different material!! lol~ Xp haha

2009-05-31T03:25:00.000-07:00

There is nothing we can't do...
there is always thing that we don't give a damn...
we are the same....
but the only different is our eyes...
you see what you see....
no one knows...
but yourself...
the way you see things make you different from others....
that is why we selfish but in different way...

you always blame....
why is it so unfair....
but you'll never think....
what you have done....

hence....
when the feeling of unfair in you started to conquer you....
you are getting careless to the people arround you....
slowly you depressed...
and lost yourself....

so you care about the unfair or you? yourself?

choose what you like. Like what you chose. no regrets and do not blame. its you who made up yourself.

P/S: My blog will died only if the emo conquered me. No worries =) and i know you don't.

Kanasai

2009-04-24T20:08:00.000-07:00

Part 1~
does anyone have any idea whats telemarketing do?

For me:
"sit-read-call-greet-ask-wish-register/laugh/scold(kanasai)"
These are the verbs from my conclusion.

sit at your desk....
read your dialogue....
read the details of the one you're going to call....
pick up the phone and call....
greet him/her....
ask for the person you want to reach....
ask....
wish before you say bye...

if register, no doubt, register....
if mistaken with words, say sorry & laugh...
if meet up someone with alien's slangs or words, laugh (but not out & loud), pretend that you understand and skip to the next question...lol (any better suggestion? Xp)....
if you hear : "no no dunwan dunwan (kap...Tutttt~)", "sorry, wrong number (kap.... tutt~)"
i scold KANASAI! (whisper ofcourse)

these are the conversations i carry out throughout the office hours.

Part 2~
It's the 3rd day i work if i not mistaken....
but it's pretty sure is during our lunch time....
we went to "MAKAN place" that situated at the lowest floor in MV.....
da bao our food respectively and brought back to office....
we opened up our food happily in the middle of our craps~
and when i swallowed half spoon of my rice....
my eyes getting focus on the other end of my spoon....
you guess what i see....
I SAW BROTHER OF WONG CHEE KEONG!
SIU KEONG!!!!!!! (a type of calling cockrouch in cantonese..)

"kanasai....siu keong in my spoon...."

i spelled them out kinda loud..Xp
then all those "8-po"s ran here and started to examine my rice....
mean time...
i already bungkus-ed them (spoon and siu keong) and send to the sampah tong....

"where?" 8-po asked....
"already thrown." i answered then continue eating without spoon...
lol...

"yer.... you still eat ar?" she asked again...
"ya... no choice la... hungry...."
.... conversation stopped....
lol...

and yea...
not to forget one question been asked too....

Q-"where you bought that (food)? food court ar?...."
A-"Kanasai's food from Kanasai's place(makan place).... "

since that....
"Makan Place" had became "Kanasai Place"

Xp~
P/S: i have no idea whats the point i'm shooting to but just tend to blog it out....

-HaPpY wOrKiNg AlL~ =)
-AlL tHe BeSt FoR ThOsE hAvInG eXams
-HaPpY hOlIdAy FoR tHoSe HaViNg HoLiDaY
-EnJoY sTuDy!

"you know who you are."

ADS by me Xp!

2009-04-23T12:28:00.000-07:00

The Ads achievement for my language and communication class....
and ofcourse presentation is needed! but i don't have any record about it!!!! lol...
lets see what i have....

Presentation 1: -prepare an ads with only "Drink A/An ________" based on AIDA principle.
Note: involve more words, this is a LCS class, not advertising class...(from the lecturer)

Ad 1

Ad 2

Ad 3

Final ads

These are the result of my first presentation....
i had been too concentrate on the ads and i'd totally forget to prepare the presentation....
hence....
i failed on the presentation part...

Presentation 2: Celebrity endorsement/ sex appeal based on Helen Resor copywriting style.

i have chosen Leah Dizon! hot sia~( my opinion la....Xp)

original photo...

my ideal ads (but not match the requirements- need more words)

The presentation version

You know what... the lecturer said it is too wordy!!!! kanasai one lo.... he is the one ask for more words... then turned up he told me that just only the words "Try ME" will do....=.=

Finally....

It's over....

Overall was kinda satisfied but just kanasai with HIS up and down.... a "gayified" and sissy lecturer that i ever seen....

Presentation 3 (final): prepare 20(+/-) slides and few ads based on tourism.

>>China, Beijing as the main spot and a little about other hot spot in China...

Celebrate CNY in China, the atmosphere that you might not want to miss! Xp

Enjoy the unique shows held in the Opera House in Beijing.

Walk into the history through the Great Wall of China.

Taste the imperial food in China.

Explore the silk road in China.

Basically the ads utilized the simple verbs as the headlines to appeal readers to take action. The small paragraph underneath as the description of the place. The Logo at the right bottom is for the image for retention so that the readers could remember. Last but not least the supporting web-site is to urge the readers to take action. As for the reason why i have minimized the length of words into just a simple verb, it is to emphasize on the beauty of China.

Finally, he nodded his head with the words "well done".

P/S: Now i understand. Not to do exactly what you think it is the best but do what is the lecturer thinks it is the best. Thanks for peoples that guided me along, you know who you are.

Guilin, The place where famous poets born & visited....

This is the impressive photograph that i found when i was doing the research of China... The Art work of the mother of nature.

-Enjoy-

Papers + ideas + hard works = ?

2009-04-21T15:54:00.001-07:00

Since there is an impact on my first sem final presentation...
which i don't wish to reveal it again....
and i'd been suspecting myself on my ability in doing any presentation since...
hence i'm examing myself a presentation after a presentation....
no doubt...
its been so nervous for me on the final group presentation for my second sem...

lets the photo tell the story...

Intro: We have been given a task to choose an occupation and work by the week achievements.
we have chosen Scuba diver as the occupation and seashell's house as the concept.....

Everything starts with just a piece of butter paper.....

Then followed by just a piece of mounting board.....

Then our ideas and hardwork injected into both papers... structure starts to form...

The kitchen area is the first space we done during the earlier stage....

Then the toilet....

when the foundation is done, here comes the second level....

And when the house is ready, the colours came (the kitchen)

The hanging staircase around the aquarium...

Ground Floor.

First Floor.

The finishing of the house after all...

Our presentation board when it is closed....

When it is opened...

We made it! lecturer and judges happy with it! =)

The group and the house. Take 1...

Take 2.... lol Xp

Not to forget our hard works...
and the time we'd went through....
though there's a little conflict in the middle of the group work....
anyway..
it made me feel more treasure and ya...
you guys had brought me up!
Thank you all!

"the beauty of work is depends on your angle of view."

P/S: i might not satisfied if it is a individual work. As for a team or group, it is excellent!

What makes you feel you are always right?

2009-04-05T11:54:00.000-07:00

as for me...
it is only a word...
"confidence"

when you are confident with the things that you've done...
you will feel always right....
i'm sometimes wonder why...
many of us feel wrong for most of the things....
and started or tried to accept what is suggested by the confidence one....

i will always feel i'm wrong...
when i've no confidence when doing something...
and i hate doing it...
but sometimes...
i have no choice but doing it....
cause i care bout YOUR feeling...
after all i will just feel so stupid...
when you treat me like fools...
but...
it tells me....
how much you care about your friends around....
and ya...
you are just so fake....
laugh for no reasons....
but just tend to create attention....
and you are on your own...
friends mean nothing to you...
and you feel you are everything....
i'm just so pity them...
they look stupid when they are with you...
it is just so sick when you are enjoying all those....
you are worry....
you are scare....
you are sensitive....
why?
cause you are avoiding every single fact...
and afraid it will be revealed one day....
aren't you suffering?

you deserve what you do...
so don't blame others when it happened...

think about it...

Thanks

2009-04-05T11:31:00.000-07:00

it's been a week of sleepless nights....
and just 1-2 hours of sleep....
days are stressed and getting more critical when dateline is getting near...
at first i was wondering will it be done by the dateline?
cause it's been dragged for quite sometimes...
and i just have no mood of doing it...
and...
when i'm down...
ideas will be bad...
hence...
i'm not working any of them out...
so i chose to leave it aside...

these few weeks i'm alone in the "nest" that i rent since the day i started my college life here...
since my housemates all been headed back to hometown to enjoy their holidays...
and when i'm alone...
i'm facing myself for longer time....
and i started to think...
sometimes i hate it...
and irritated by it...
cause i have no one to talk to!!!!
except walls...
lol...

the only thing tat enable me to contact with outside world is only my laptop!!!
since i have not much credit on phone...
some more it is having message delayed problem...
sigh...

anyway...
i prefer face-to-face....
rather then just chat through msn...
cause i'm not so good to express myself through words...
T,T

anyway...
as time goes by...
i'm getting used to it...
and i'm getting silence....

BUT i'm getting to be more understand myself....
and these days....
i'm testing out myself....
how far i can go...
and how high i can fly...
and what are my weaknesses....

AS TO IMPROVE MY "SWIMMING" SKILLS.....
thanks for what i've been given to....

SWIM!!!!

2009-03-26T02:52:00.000-07:00

my blog is either dead or emo nowadays....
aix...
should expose more to new people....
i gotta peal off my previous skin!!!!!
its so bored!!!
i realized that the circle of my friends its getting smaller....
the matter of fact is....
"Friends come and go..."
but for me now...
it is...
"Friends go"
but never
"come"
its so miserable....
nothing i could blame but myself....
guys....
please choose the college that concentrate on both academic and outdoor activities.....
as if you are the type of active person....
not to regret...
T.T
i have no way back....
but moving forward...
not to say that i've chosen the wrong path....
but its the uneasy period from the unwanted ones in the path....
i really have to shrug it off...
of what it is happening recently....

come on turtle....
swim...
swim!

Its not good to be Good!

2009-03-26T02:21:00.000-07:00

something i knew...
but i rather i don't know about it....
and i hope never know at all!!!!!!!
it's so suffering to act that i'm innocent....
but...
besides...
i really have no idea what's going next....
and what am i going to do....
maybe its not the right time...
and it might be a reason for me to keep avoiding...
cause i know...
if i revealed the truth....
you guys will not happy and kiddy around like now...
i decided to keep....
YOU know its you....
please...
next time before you do anything...
please think and consider about the consequences that might happen after all...
you might saying that i'm not cooperate with you guys or what...
but...
before that....
please look at the mirror...
see...
see who are you and what you did...
what forgive?
forgive what?
i ain't doing anything wrong...
but i also already apologized for the things i never do....
and its not done by me...
YOU are acting to be good....
lol...
its just so fake....
i know all of you might saying that i'm stupid or what....
but i'm just not keen to hurt anyone...
i'm really tired to look back to the issue and talk about it...
i really sick of it really!
YOU WILL NEVER REALIZE.....

its really sarcastic....
when all of YOU were standing in the same row...
and act nothing infront of me....
FAKERS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

to YOU: you will always say... "i forgive....." but never "i'm sorry..." this obviously shows that you never found yourself wrong... actually i had forgiven and apologized earlier on.... but i never feel its sincere from you... its doesn't really important for a "sorry" from you... i'm just feel its so fake to keep myself along with friend that will only care about herself! i'm not comfortable at all... i wish you understand... its not one side's job but both.... the matter is not that superficial that you think... i don't think you understand this now.... *stop*

P/S: Nobody will realize the disaster is approaching.... and theres always no prevention!!! have fun all.... i got no point why i'm so stupid... i'm so regretted i started my facebook.... thanks for the contribution from YOU. i'm so surprised for your sudden appear....

2009-03-15T10:01:00.000-07:00

Nowadays, i guess no one can survive without Hp....
Especially teenagers like us...
Am i still? Xp haha

Anyway,
its been a week without my hp...
yet i realized that ...
the things that im inconvenient with is...
i hardly to talk with my mum....
and friends in 1 or 2...
other than that...
Hp for me is just like an alarm clock...
nothing else'd be..
it means that now my life is still going well without Hp...
and it also proves that the circle of friends of mine is also getting smaller...
Its getting BORING!!!
i don't wana die of boredom man...
and assignment is everything!!!!!
lol...

P/S: I realized I'll get emo if i'm alone...

2009-03-03T03:25:00.000-08:00

was struggling of gastric and flee for 2 days....
and yet i'm still alive...
haha...
pending assignments were once been delayed again...
Xp

hence i continued....
besides i found few sites that flood with impressive wallpapers...
from the wallpapers for normal screen...
and to Dual-screen...

This is what a dual-screen means...I 'heart' this one =)

impressive huh?! simply love it.

For anyone that is looking for impressive wallpapers for your PC...
here is the site:
http://hqwalls.blogspot.com

enjoy.

Malaysia is a peaceful country. KL is a heaven.

2009-02-28T14:01:00.000-08:00

Ya.. visit MALAYSIA... why not?

especially this place...

As you can know from every media....
as from what you heard....
you might realized that...
Malaysia...
especially KL...
is getting SO MUCH FUN!
crime sceneS repeats...
thieves increase...
and robbers too!

*shit*
its making me worry now...
for people that working throughout the evening time and enters the midnight...
and comes back in the morning...

These days are gone...

try understand from this... i'm not going to comment anything for this..

and people...
becareful la.. no matter where you are...
theres no more heaven in anywhere else...
especially this place...
hell do existing as every places here...
the difference is just the HELL-ness of the place...
good luck.

P/S: i nearly die.

take time to realize

2009-02-28T13:42:00.000-08:00

I REALIZED THAT....
everyone might have many solution for most of the problems....
and especially for friends....
family? perhaps ya....
probably also....
but when it comes to yourself....
haha...
i think we should have laugh....
we might can't even have any solution for it....
and that's why nowadays many people getting so emo...
lol...
(i may be wrong? who knows?)

i'm referring to myself too! Xp
and yet..
i realized...
it is doesn't really about the matter....
but YOU...
yourself....
...
and ME.....
myself...
of course...
Xp

and...
i also realized that...
there is angel's side and evil's side in everyone...
and the "angel" is my mindset...
and the "evil" is my heart....
how bout you people?
=)

wake up friend

2009-02-27T21:31:00.000-08:00

i'm happy with my work....
i'm glad you appreciate it too...
i'm relief...
i'm free for the coming holiday!
i'm desperate to see my friends!
i'm coming! =)

and yet...
i'm just suddenly feel so sorry to someone elseS....
i suddenly feel so delighting when i know...
(i know i shouldn't feel that..)
IT is happening....
last words...

Friend indeed is friend in need...
and everyone understands...
don't see things so superficial...
don't make things so complicated...
be true...
you'll find way better...

especially YOU.

stop!
this is you..

-wake up-

2009-02-22T20:02:00.000-08:00

with billions of thoughts but never a work is zero...
with 100% work but never a single % of thought is zero....
so think and work at the same time...
make it happen.

so sick

2009-02-22T19:35:00.000-08:00

over depressed is a sickness...
overconfidence can be a decease....
overconfidence with just the out look is real sick....
with less or nothing in hand...
im up and down within 1 & 99 but rarely stay at 50.....
yet it shows i'm sick....

WTF

2009-02-11T01:46:00.000-08:00

first i thought i heard wrong....
second i thought you have something to busy...
third...
i keep looking for better reasons for you....
now...
i'm sick....
sick of your attitude!
i'm paying for showing me anger?
such impatient and such not professional enough...
i still tolerate with you....
you ask for words...
i did....
but in return....
you have your opinion again...
fine...
but....
again go against what i heard??
my ears got problem again?
AGAIN?!

perhaps...=.=
and
i try ask again...
you are like....
"sh......"
and you shoot....
"i'm not gona to repeat this over and over again...(actually it just once...since you are again and again sending me different message...)"
hmm.....
and again...
i hope i was wrong...
and again chance is given..
hope you'll change...
i know you wont see this...
but it is just a little space for me to sound out what i feel....
and i had enough for that...
hope...
its just hope...
that is not anymore impatient faces.....
tones...
showing angers for no reason....
and being so hot tempered....
not anymore claim that we are wrong for dragging your time that SAMAN is gonna reach your wheels....(its rediculous!lol~)
our wrong again???
NO! of cause...its our class! our time!
who are you?!
pay for the fxxking parking lot that you'd parked your bloody car!
lol...
again...
its been so rude....
but...
its something i kept inside for quite sometimes....

anyway thanks...
you had lift my patience....
Xp
sia~

in the other hand...
today was the second presentation for LCS!
hell....
before that....
i really can feel my heart is beating fast all the long!
really afraid the stupid NERVOUS will get into me again!
i don't want it!

well...
its getting better now...
maybe i'm slowly get used to this new environment already....
every comments was fine to me....
a little critic of the ads that i've made....
you said: "it's too wordy.... i cant really focus.... just left the headline(2 words)'ll do... other is too much... and it spoils the image of the ads...it is a waste with such wonderful picture you have...."
=.= sxxx you...
pass 2 weeks i'd asked you over and over again to make sure....
and you raised your tone....
"This is LCS class.... i need more words.... i don't want just 2 words that simple... please focus on words..."

see?this is what i did... to satisfy the wordy request.... does it that terrible? =/

this is what i want actually....

i was quite happy of what i had done today...
i really feel it is so full-filled...
and a little of satisfaction....XP
don't care d la...haha
as long as it is from my very best for now...
i happy with it...
so how you think?

and now i have to do another copy of it with a "minor" changes suggested by the lecturer and apply on it....lazy ar..T.T tired lea...help~

P/S: i'm getting back on track... lend me a hand k? =) nothing is happy or not happy by doing anything it is just that is it based on willing or not willing? is it with true heart? if is is true... ya..you'll have real happy... good luck

Friend is like a mirror

2009-02-10T11:41:00.000-08:00

Everyone know what is a mirror for...
without realize...
it slowly became part of our life...
so its so radically common...

so how often you rub your personal mirror?
once a week?
a month?
a year?
or never?
so the longer it is...
the more dusty it is...
and the image reflects...

at the beginning...
it starts showing a little blur...
and slowly you cant really see yourself...
so a friend is like a mirror...
rub it often...
put in some effort...
or maybe "decorate"?
you shine him/her up...
he/she shines on you too! =)

P/S: to you.My friend. Do you still remember me? =) i'm asking myself too, am i stil remember you? Whenever i asked this, your image become clear again...

valentines day

2009-02-09T03:51:00.000-08:00

its getting nearer...
and its just around the corner....
it means differently to different point view...

for a couple...
it a best time to romantic...
as for those going-to-be-couple....
its time to confess...
and see what goods in return...
mostly sweet memories after all...

to someone who interested in someone...
its time to show your sincerely and gentle...
and how much you care about it....
and goods will judge from there and a little from your luck....

for me its such a wonderful day when you see couples are sweet all along the way they walk...

nervous with surprise(s) that's going to happen or going to give to the beloved ones...
roses are hot selling now....
rose red, pink and white are now everywhere waving around...
created a warm and harmonious atmosphere....
which is so wonderful....

busy couples now are crowded in the gift shop wondering and a little hesitating of the surprises that's going to happen...

lost couples traveling up and down the escalator in the mall...
looking for their beloved ones....
and they met each other somehow...
faces are red...
but yet sweet...
and touching...
kisses and hugs now become an enchantment...
air condition are now from 16 rose to 37 perhaps!

i'm enjoying though i know i'll be alone again this year...
so what's yours? =)

WISH EVERYONE....
have a memorable and HAPPY VALENTINES DAY!

P/S: missing no one... but recalling back sweet memories that've been given to me... you are precious to me... i love you... for what can i say... is i missed it... i sincerely wishing you stay happy and love what you love, appreciation is much needed... love and affection... lets LOVE warms up the world... lead the misfortune ones out of the darkness... kill those evils! LOVE is everything.... from yourself to everyone else....

Gaming is so FUN!!!!!

2009-02-04T18:46:00.000-08:00

i never been trying this for the pass 18 years...
since the ability of my desktop that only customized for study and the most extreme is...
it can surf the net=.=

when comes to gaming...
it'll probably lag non-stop...
or sometimes the PC will suddenly black-out....lol
hence i've totally sick of gaming...
i still remember that...
during my primary school time...
i wish to have 3DX-max in the pc to do some 3D practice and transform the comic that we(me & nic) made during our primary school time into animation...
but refused...
since my pc hv limited ability..

and during my secondary school time...
when everyone is talking about gaming...
such that DOTA? CS? Gunbound? mapple? o2-jam???? and more....
the sharing of experiences of it is like surrounding me almost everyday...
and yet i feel i'm so alien...
since i don't know whats so fun about it....
even i try install any of it into the "LIMITED EDITION" desktop that i'm having...
it lag like hell!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
gave out then...*sobs*

and until i got my new lappy (though it have its limitation...but yet it is still running game smoothly (=... )
my life change a lil...
i've started to love it!
its so fun!!!!!
i know whats the joy when sharing experiences and sharpen your skills....
for me its so fresh!!!!! XP
below are those 3 games that i'm so craze about it recently...

guys! have fun... =)

P/S: hell! i almost forget about study!!!! XP

Happy CNY!!!!

2009-02-03T05:33:00.000-08:00

been away from blog quite sometimes...
But Happy CNY! to everyone....
haha... hope all of you did enjoy well along the hldy!

just don't know why...
the atmosphere of CNY is fading away a little by little....
so for me other than getting all those red packets its nothing much about it...
but a break for my parents that working with no days and night...
i did really enjoy all the time with my family...
this year we didn't plan much about which house to visit or invite anyone during the Cny break...
and it seems more like family dayS...
=)

we went to the JENJAROM's fgs temple at night....
unfortunately its raining...
and before that we got lost in the ways that we are not familiar with and bloody directions given by the online map!!!
moreover...
i forgot to charge my camera's battery!!!!!!!!!!!!!
LOL~ was shooting with unstable mode...
then broke down....
Xp luckily got my sis hp! yay! haha...
since its raining...
we couldnt get to visit to every corner of the temple...
but still nice la...
haha...
here are several photo we took...

the entrance...

mum & sis under the sparkling tree~

the buddha

cool~! XP

i like the blur motion behind... it really makes my sis stands out from it!! Xp

Warning: Please do not knock....LOL!

Oo ya... remember go at night! its so impressive with its light effect!

view

view...

VIEW!....=.=

and ya..
we went port dickson!!!!
we didn't lost the way for this time!!!
see who is driving la!!! hahha...
(paham paham la...)
Xp These are a little from this outgoing...

dad: "like that also want to take photo..."

mum & dad

ice cream & the beast

ice cream & the beauty

sis: " oi stay there..."

the beaty and the sea~=p

beast and the pretty storm...

sis & mum

our shadow...

the polluted beach_abandoned underwear~

the polluted beach_twisty lol~

Alone

the Artificial Sedimentary stone bridge BY sea shells~

but it is sad that i couldn't enjoy the sunset at port dickson...
we left earlier to recover our tiredness for sleepless nights..
LOL~
(kononnyer night ghost....supposedly was sleeping in the day time)
other might wondering what life style we are having..
but this is our way of living!
and thats my family! =)
LOVE YA!!!!

To: everyone... HAPPY COW YEAR!!! may all d luck goes to you! and have great wealth and health too!! GONG HEI FATT CHOI!! eh eh eh... don't pretend la... maner Angpau sayer??? don't look other place la... give me je...Xp

512, remember the day

2009-01-23T02:42:00.000-08:00

heartbreaking news on si chuan earthquake 512...
an article which i had read in the pass few months.. it took away many of lifes and changed many peoples' life throughly after a severe quake.
i still remember one of the article during that time...
its about a father and a son had trapped in the earthquake and the mother is dead squished in between the wreakage... the upper body was exposed to the outside world and lower body is stucked inside the collapsed room which her husband and son were trapped... theres no way else for them to come out from the wreakage... after had one glance at the son... the father decided to saw the body of his wife in order to kept his son and him to survive... can you get that image? for me even though it is just imagin and it is impressive enough for me to carry it in my mind until today... and i decided to look into it again...

the family members are collapse, the daughter kneeled down begging for the rescuing of their father that buried under the wreckage...

"no worries honey... i'll send you back to our home..." the husband tied his wife that sacrificed during that si chuan earthquake with him so that he could send her back to their home on his bike and never leave her...

"soon u'll be alright..." i guess its not anymore bout the pains all over the body but the pain that being torn apart forever with their beloved ones....

the chair left for no one... it stored the memories before every these tragedies happened...

its a few days after the disaster.... the victim's family brought their photo so that the rescue team could get them back to them... began with hope and last with broken dreams for most of them... and it last forever... stay strong people... don't give up...

"she is so cute... and so grateful.. but now..." a father who lost his daughter holding the photo tide.. crying with no tears but the pains...

"come back son...." she knew her son is no longer alive... its really heart breaking.. and hard to accept it as a truth... "stay strong mum... i don't want to see you cry...i'll take care of myself..."

the hands poking out from the collapsed wall... were seeking for help until the last breath but yet couldn't get anyone but the

this guy had great suffer under the severe collapsed building and wondering is he still alive...

the only exposed hand seeking for help until the energy worn off...

the innocent boy child reply a smile to the rescue member as for thankful and to comfort the mother that had waited for his positive reply... the man was crying for the pain that lost his beloved ones..

perhaps they are still alive.... theres a lot of hopes....
.the father headed to the collapsed school to pack his passed daughter's used stationary and workbooks... and tears are dropping inside....

this shows love is borderless....

"i promise you i will study hard... and i wana be someone succeed in the future.. to buy you a mansion... drive nice car... but now..."

p/s:we will never know wads going to happen next.. appreciate every moments with our beloved ones... and try our best in everything... if tomorrow it fall on us... at least we will never regretted that we'd live once before.. wake up people... theres alot misfortune visit every corner of the world every day, every hour, every minute, every second and even a mili-second... it still happens.. and wars are still carry on... hey people... why still we keep on fighting each other? why don't we save our breath to give them a helping hand? you can make a difference... lets mourn for them... i'm just a student and didn't manage to do any donation and travelling to those corner that needed us the most... just wish to contribute a little here.. and hope its aid...the feelings of affection- L.O.V.E

Last words

2009-01-23T00:37:00.000-08:00

Making fun of people is real fun... making fun of people that you hate is more fun... people that u making fun of is real fun.... and you think its fun by showing those ignorant face infront of the people that you making fun of... he didn't know... by letting you to do anything and willing to fooled by you without complaining... behind the scenes that whispered and laugh out as rude as you can do.... he still keeping silence... and you think he is stupid... and as guilty as you continue... and you feel real fun! when its in more bigger group you form... and the more you enhance the trouble and making worst of him... you feel wow... its so delight... yeah! you have revenged... and you really feel so as you could poking holes on his back and laugh as loud as no body business... hell... be mature k?? why don't try do it infront of him? by letting him know? since he manage things in so terrible.. and kill him infront of the crowd by took away his pride by one shot? you'll be more happy right? but... you didn't... but just wish to do it silently.... and gives him a combo... and giving all those "reasonable" reasons to those listeners... until the day you sensed that he is commenting... in the way that... you are disadvantage.. and you come out with those annoying faces... and you put on a mask now... come near to this prey... and acting with your monkey faces... acting angry... acting sincere.... acting innocent... and doing in the way that... you are OPEN-minded.. in fact... you are afraid of what people think of you... and what people talk behind you... and started to act to exaggerate and spread whatever and adding in some enhancer into the story.. come on.... you are adult... cant you manage to do things in your age? no one really cares who are you... but the innocents... pity them and shame on you. but... he didn't blame you.... cause the one should blame and sad of... what'd built your character... your manners... and where's your conscience? he is wondering... maybe you didn't realize? who knows? you know the main different of human and animal... can you tell me? probably not... its human may manage to overcome the emotions... but animal will only totally conquer by those fxxking emotions... and hence have no humanity... its sometimes really happen to us... as rational was M.I.A.. and which we can't blame... so there is no blame for you?? and by not admitting this fact.... yea you are slowly apply with this matter of fact... and now you start cursing like no one.... and wanted to revenge... yea... you are welcome animal... with "s".... (sorry if you think you are) its so sick when seeing those human acts like an animal... which think herself were so right and doesn't really look deep in herself... and materialistic aswell... and likes to be the slave of money and pride... and dying with easy life... and slowly become blind... so he is wondering as you say you are happy... and come out with those superficial theory as what is friend and what friends are for... and if i not wrong.. you are denying now... you will always think you are most important as compare to anyone... and think yourself is always right... and you'll never see things from other people's angle... it reflects on how sick you are... how immature are you... every dream may stop one day... hope that day is still early for you... what i'm trying to say is... i'm so stupid.... to think that it is always a better day tomorrow... and world is always so peace... and slowly i fell sick... sick of you people... it'll always hurt when i share my feelings with you people... and you'll never think of why i so care... firstly i hate to create enemy... now i'm sick of making unwanted friends.... nothing to blame... but blame to my immature positive thought... and i've grow with every pain... this world is so fair... only people with darkest heart stay longest on earth... people with positive thought dies early... and now i realized... its real fair... cause people who die later than anyone else suffers the most... which he/she didn't considered that at the early age... i chosen to die at last... so no one is suffer... but you guys never know...
learn to accept & appreciate things... but not always running away from it... you'll take it somehow...
A friendship may sink as either one side has lost its weight....

P/s: i had carried thousands of experiment on myself... its once in a while i was so tired by making all the people around me happy and satisfy with me... and in the end of the day i discovered a matter of fact... its so true... "in your life, you may not able to satisfy all the people around you, but you can chose to satisfy on 2 category of people to you. first was your friends and second was the category of people that hate you for no reason. so why not just to try your best to satisfy the big category of friends that easy going with you, and ignore the small particuler group that always digs out your pain with stupid reasons, whats wrong?" and " you can fool all the people at a time, but not all the people at all the time...." ...and again im thoroughly exhausted now with this small particular group... and i think its worth that i'd exposed myself with no self-defended... and it tells me how important are you to me... and how much value do you have... i'm relief now since i can delete you from the friend's list of mine... with no any wonder =) thank you for what you'd do to me by the early days... i do really appreciate... and unsolved misunderstands in you were the big murderer. that's all i can say and nothing i can do.

now i understand what is hate all about.

Personality Test

2009-01-21T11:07:00.000-08:00

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love.

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

Its quite accurate somehow...
the answer from http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

Further more...It says...

Aesthetic

You appreciate art, beauty, and design; you know that they are not superficial but absolutely crucial to living the good life. You have good taste, and you're proud of it.

You don't think it's pretentious to be moved by art and beauty. You're not one of those who believe it doesn't matter what something looks like as long as it does its job.

Those with a high score on the "aesthetic" trait are often employed in literary or artistic professions, enjoy domestic activities — doing things around the house — and are enthusiastic about the arts, reading, and travel.

Understanding

You are willing to take the time to find out what's going on with other people, especially if they're in distress. You're a good listener, you don't criticize, and you offer unbiased, respectful, honest advice when it's requested.

You don't feel the need to impose your standards on others or say things that, even though true, cause pain.

With a high score on the "understanding" trait, it is likely that you are enthusiastic about charitable work, helping others, and making the world a better place.

Curious

You like to get to the bottom of things. You're not content knowing what someone did; you want to know why they did it.

You don't simply take things as they are and move on; you're not content skimming along on the surface; you don't feel you're wasting time by digging for the meaning of things.

Warm

You have a genuine interest in other people. You're a natural host, and are always thinking about how you can increase the happiness of those around you. When friends have problems or are in trouble, you're usually the first person they turn to for aid and comfort.

You don't always say exactly what you're thinking; you don't like the idea of causing anyone pain because of your criticism.

Scoring high on the "warm" trait suggests that you are among those who enjoy domestic activities — doing things around the house — and are enthusiastic about charitable work, helping others, and making the world a better place.

Cooperative

You enjoy teamwork, play well with others, and prefer getting along to winning.

You're not compelled to win every contest nor to be right all the time.

(i'm still wondering with this.... I don't think i am....and i'm so hoping it really happens!)

Empathetic

You are in touch with your own feelings, which helps put you in touch with the feelings of others.

You don't buy the logic that your happiness comes ahead of everyone else's because unless you're happy you're incapable of making anyone else happy.

Cautious

You very rarely make a move without first considering the pros and cons and, therefore, rarely do anything foolish or extravagant.

You are not rash; you almost never act before you think and, therefore, rarely end up doing things you later regret.

Organized

You like to think a task through before you embark on it. If it's the slightest bit complicated, you make a list (even if it's only in your mind) and methodically work your way through it. When you have a goal in mind, you're not satisfied until you reach it.

You are not one of those people who ignore the details, and you don't understand how anyone can get anything accomplished without thoughtful planning ahead of time.

Introspective

You like your own company; you're a very interesting person. Tracking your own mental processes, knowing what you're thinking and why you do what you do, is important to you. Often, what's going on in your mind is more compelling than what's going on outside.

You are not someone who is constantly looking to be among a group of friends; you never feel bored when you are by yourself.

For the most part, those with a high score on the "introspective" trait enjoy reading, taking long walks, learning new things, and other solitary activities.

Arbitrary

You believe life can be fairly random, and trying to impose a tight little grid on it is a waste of time - your conclusion: relax. Things will work out (or not). No need to get ultra-logical about everything.

You do not believe that everything has a logical explanation or that every problem has a logical solution.

This is more into detail...

http://www.signalpatterns.com/personality_survey#

P/S: i am so surprised which it is more understand me that i am... psychology is miracle! =)

13年後的蠟筆小新

2009-01-21T02:30:00.000-08:00

YEA! is Crayon Shin Chan!
didn't think that it can be so touching too!!!!
anyway...
was streaming the you-tube....
accidentally i found this...
its much more to express the feelings in words...
but my language is just limited me...
as you watch it...
i guess you can feel what i'm feeling now...
its so touching...

http://www.blogger.com/post-create.g?blogID=1678560710041999719

what you think?

up & down

2009-01-21T00:06:00.000-08:00

hmm its few seems tragedies for me now..
or maybe not?
its a sign?
i guess ya....
its leading me way to be the better reptiles...Xp
but it is mainly impact on the self-confidence....
AGAIN?! ya.. again.... lols...

lets come with the first one...
before that i thought i was quite good in drawing....
and yet drawing it just not only black and white....
but colours~
the insensitivity in colour in me makes me feel more into the colour blind!!!!
it is something to do with the c0lour flow from dark to light and the reflection of colours and blend on the(etc... etc...)...
wow...
its a quite a distance of jump through here...
practice makes perfect...
and practice and be more sentitive (sensitive here mainly in arts) will do i guess...
correct me if i'm wrong...
haha...
since i was feeling so disappointed by the first colour drawing...
and by the same time i got back all my black and white drawings in the first sem...
its unbelievable! which i've almost forget...
and the results are kept throughout the sem and until now only released!!!
from the first grade B- to the rest B+.....
Finally i scored an A in the final perspective drawing!!!!!
now i really feel it!
it's more like a encouragement...
once i felt...
"practice makes perfect" is making sense!!!! XP

the second was....
now i'm entering the second lesson of language communication skill....
and ya...
today was the presentation...
i think the tragedy fell on me...
and a little on others too!
something its really worth to laugh with...
i stucked! really badly and cant even spell a single word for almost half a minute...
that is outnumbered of distractions happened in recent...
though really i'd really prepared my presentation...
but just cant get myself prepared....
for its quite big impact on my self-confidence...
the immature of thinking is still flowing a little by little by the plenty of time...
and i'm acting against from it...
and forcing myself to doing things in the RIGHT way perhaps...
( just trying to seek for the true answer...)
and i cant just make used to it...
and as what you can see..
i failed...
its a big disappointment for me on presentation for the very first time...
which i never felt...

BUT...
i tend to laugh at it...
its also the things i should happy with...
relax and see what fell in my past....
i done presentation smoothly and so well compare to now....
but that time i just feel that, it ain't any satisfaction or things to happy with...
but now i realized...
its so true that...
if i won't fall....
i won't feel the pain...
and whats the feeling of satisfaction really are....
and i don't know how happy in happiness can be...

As for those art work...
what i can say was...
as if you achieved a certain level...
and when you entering a new level...
you'll realized...
everything before this level...
ain't a big thing...

as for the future....
if i'm looking back this....
it ain't a big thing....
but for me now...
its a BIG thing of course!!!!!!

propelling forward!

P/s: its a little harsh and impatient of the lecturer today... a little pissed off... but its ok.... since lecturers from our coll are mostly part-timers and yet they all are considered professional enough... just a little bit trouble with time... especially when lecture hours and working hours come to a crash... hope it may improve and a little more punctual will be just fine...=) and ya great presentation you guys having! proud of you guys^! keep it up and with improvement of course!!

* was hoping you ok with the little critic, since its just a beginning. its find to make mistake now and improve from it and it'll be fine in the future.something i realized... your quality of work is degraded i'm just hoping what i'm thinking wasn't the truth. sincerely hoping all the best in everthing you do. you still have your friends support you. nothing to be afraid. for you everything is going smoothly just learn to appreciate things that's it. friend indeed is friend in need, BUT not friend in need is friend indeed. hope you get what i'm trying to say.
You know who you are.

Our days are coming back

2009-01-19T11:15:00.000-08:00

was arranging the files in my thumb drive.... and found these images... It reminds me of something... It is playing in my mind now... i guess its all the same with you guys... i still believed that it is still the turning point... as all the misunderstanding is gone... and now...
i'm hoping that...
no one is leaving... especially the one who planning to leave... trust me by the first and the last time.... I'm wondering are you really with me? hope so

take 1

take 2

take 3

take 4

tella, Me & Aaron

P/S: though we had those confession... but things still remain undone... Its still a question mark at the last of the sentence... soon it'll turn to a full-stop... whether it's a perfect now its depends... effort from two are in need... i'm now opened to everything... come and deal =) You are most welcomed! i'm so precious that you guys'd started the first step

"Anything You Can Forget But SPLASH PARTY... It's a best prove we ain't acting naturally by recent us"

2009-01-18T09:47:00.000-08:00

its a smiling face you can see...
but the inside....
its full with pressure...
hard time i'm having....
hardest?
i guess not...
that is a strange feeling...
but yet
its feel more like a encouragement for the recent me...
just don't know why...
where is my pessimist thought?
been occupied by the optimist thought?
i guess i know....
i can feel its burning inside...
an undistinguished fire...
i am not dying...
i kept silent....
its to making sure of something....
i'm going aggressive i guess...
thanks YOU for what you've done to me...

something is growing in different way...
wake me up if necessary...
i'm not afraid that i'll fall anymore...
the meaning and reason that i'm living, first is my family, my friends and of cause myself....
i'm starting to love myself before anyone do

Nothing is so embarrassing but a coward

"THEY WAIT"

2009-01-09T09:47:00.000-08:00

i'm so surprised that....

first time i kept awake in sunway pyramid's cinema!!!!!!

now is 1: 30 a.m.
just back from a late night horror movie~

Caution: do not close your eye(s)...

yea...
they are waiting for you~
haha..Xp
anyway..
its sort of worth-to-watch especially for couples~ Xp
the story line is kind of unexpected...
so for me its a great movie with different style of ghost story telling!
you may laugh for a second and then followed by your heartbeat stop for 2 seconds....
that all i can say...
so what it is about?
haha... i don't want to spoil all the "surprise" la!
go watch yourself!
confirm CHUN! XP

P/S: OO ya...remember go at night!! =p

What a schedule

2009-01-08T23:11:00.000-08:00

i just got my timetable...
u guess what?
only monday, wednesday, friday & saturday have class...
the rest all off...
LOL~
some more the saturday class had lengthen till the late afternoon!
my weekends off are gone! T.T
aix...

hmm...
it might seems horrible by just looking at it...
but if think it in detail...
i can have better rest and perform the best for everyday!!!
hope everything is going fine..
come on....
this is "cow" year...

hehe..yea right...i'm working with DARLIE..

Darlie: "you copy COW!"

ROAR~ not MOooooooo~

lets kick-away all the blocks! XP

you made my year!

2009-01-03T20:13:00.000-08:00

got enough break after spm 2007...

at the beginning of 2008....
i fully exposed myself to the outside world....
strata of friendships had created over times....

(date: 03/01/2008- 05/03/2008)
SUB timesquare...
the fashion with black & white as trademarks....
though the pay that they are paying is not consider high...
but yet i'd grew to be more independent here and much more confidence...
and i knew you guys!!!!! my colleagues, my friends....

the big family of SUB-ts at early 2008...

all in the pic no longer in SUB...
so kinda hard to contact each of them now..

zhen, me , marcus & heng

like yesterday...Xp lolz!

"F4" in the fitting room~ XP

the 3 "gangster"s~ do we look like?

"Store-room"whore~ XP

Justin, yoko, me

i like the jacket!...Xp

my days in SUB ended due to the national service....

p/s: the moments we used to have lunch, we rushing back to punch card, we sing-k after work, our laughters, our sweats throughout the CNY period, our minor conflicts, our birthday celebrations which 3 at once.... it is stil freshly playing in my mind as i recall back those memories.... there's someone here i admire.... she is 6 years elder than me how i fall????? haha..Xp

(date: 18/03/2008- 08/05/2008)
NS life begun in kem kubena, sipitang, sabah....
190308....
i'll never forget....
it's the day i get bald!!!!!Xp
at night, when the lamp firstly flashed on my bald....
and the shadow occured on the floor....
i was like...
wth~! whose head is this????!!!!
(supposedly i will just keep adjusting my hair which spiking up before that with the shadow... freak man~! Xp haha)

The Dewan Makan we used to sleep~ XP

since most of us is from different districts....
we blend easily....
brotherhood were built...
we taking care of each other whoever you are, wherever you from...
the can't-be-avoid quarrel happened too...
i involved myself...
the issue is so sensitive and hence i cannot mention here...
but...
i think i will regret and feel shame of myself as i am a coward that time...
and because of that...
i got more understand of most of them...
and glad you guys are standing on my side that time...
i can feel the warm from the supports that are given...
and yet i feel so cold with the cruelness of the matter of facts...
i'm getting aggressive that's it....

the few days of holiday in the camp during ching-meng...
i had spent my time in lawas...
every moments here...
i feel so miracle....
which can't really explained in words...
but feel will do....

our big family in lawas~ sg. bangat beach(if i'm correct Xp)

take 2~

ching-meng we go picnic.... can you imagine? lols~ =)
try count the people in the photo...
all of us go to the beach in one Toyota Hilux~siao!!!XP
most of us squeeze at the back of the truck...
and you guess what..
while the time we going back...
down pour occured..
the rain drops hitted on our skin is something like stones falling on us!!!!
pain sial!!!~ but fun!!! i never had this craze before!!! Xp haha...

the lawas garden~

the sudden landslide on 25th of april...
caused emergency close for our kem...
all of us being splitted in a night...
we have been sent to few different camps after all...
we all sent back to the peninsula and continue our camp here.....
as others were sent to camps around sabah....
thats the night we torn the most....
the atmosphere is so down...
our dinner suddenly became so tasteless..
everyone is so quiet...
supposedly we have dinner together....
but now seems the table next to us is blank out....
and theres no one..
feels lik losing something that is important...
but yet just cant do anything....
and tears start rolling in the eyes....

they are together no matter where are them....and yet they are separated by the landslide at the time...

the night before leaving...
we'd planned to celebrate one of our friend's birthday earlier than the usual one...
i've been rushing the birthday card under my little torch light and limited sight...
few of us were passing around our note book to wrote down our regards and contact...
perhaps we are not seeing each other anymore... lol...
everyone slept...
the snores is so loud in the dome...
everyone slept...
left me...
supprisingly...
i not scared anymore...
but jz unwilling to leave the people here and the place we used to be..
its so sudden and unprepared....
in the afternoon we were hell so happy and enjoy playing football and all the laughters as usual....
really cant imagine...
accept it? forced to!
sobs~

they are in sabah/sarawak(except the Singh~)...will we meet again? =)

my group in the class-programme

we are in one~

the night before we leave... as our song is playing... we cry like nobody business.... our eyes are red...

our steps... our songs... could you remember?

Alfa-"wi..ra... wi..ra... WATI!...."(we will rock you)

Bravo-"rajawali... rajawali... rasa sayang hei! rasa sayang sayang hei..."

Charlie-"charlie gemiling... o charlie gemilang! hu~ha!!..."
Delta.....

perhaps the songs are playing yesterday...

we took army flight (c130)...
few of us sent to kem kuala kubu baru(kkb)....
with our heart is still missing each other...
i still remember the scene the girls were crying while being pulled to aside to be sent to different camps...

these are my little time in kkb...

we mandi kolam!!! Xp
(for your info, its probibited...)

i being stuck in the middle! Xp

we hate cantin food!!! this is the cafe for us.. haha

thanks for you guys for look after me and guide me as i am new here....
though time we spend together is short...
but its so much fun!
happy to know you guys!!!
you guys is great in table tennis!
i'd enjoy the game...
especially you! nicholas!!! terengganu boy!!!

'pop'~ times like fly.....
8th of may....
i'd backed with bald...
and darker skin!!!!
even my mom also cant recognize me!!! sei mou....Xp

(date:01/06/2008- 08/2008)
i backed to SUB to visit my "old" colleages....
most of them left....
and my two ex-supervisors are goin to work with levi's pavilion...
they offer me to work with them since my sem start on september...
deal~!
Xp
haha...
1st of june...
its the day...
i get contact with the levi's strauss...
and i handle evrything from the selling floor to the counter...
and thanks my suprevisor given me such a chance....
i really gain alot...
from zero to 90%...
again this company is really stingy in paying....
sumore likes to cut your salary!!!
the first month i had been cut away 500 bks!!! wth...
anyway i had made friends here too!but its sad that 1 of them misunderstood me...
lol~ tried but cant help it...
i enjoyed serving good customers!!! Xp
anyone of you looking for levis jeans remember tell me i can promote you...XP haha..

Lis, Anderson, Nelson, me at the below...XP

-treat ones with sincere heart, you'll be replied with a smile-

*street wear bible *J.cool donuts *Maison *red-box *we "snake" XP haha..

P/S: i left this company in the early august with the reason of further my study...
infact the main reason is i cant cope with the stupid rules that given by the company...
group 36 is having big prob in handle its man-power...
lols~
what i can say was...
the company won't appreciate its worker...
every benefits goes to the upper department after the position of manager...

(date: 03/09/2008)
followed by my first semester of college's life...
and here i got into another friendship....

compare to the previous years....
2008 is such a full-filled one...
and yet it caused me emotional unstable...
sometimes really confused...
and yet stil can cope with it...
and i understand...
our life cant be colourful without sadness and happiness either one....
i'm learning to accept things...
and appreciate...

i'm glad i met everyone of you! you guys made my year!!! Xp

lets put a full-stop to year 2008

2009-01-01T02:15:00.000-08:00

is it a perfect full-stop or an imperfect full-stop?
it depends..
for me...
its a imperfect full-stop....
the promise that we promised....
where it is?
forgotten?
or else?
hmm...

31st of Dec 2007....

31st Dec 2008..
i backed to the place we used to be but yet there is isn't any of you there...
but strangers...

Miss You All

my 2008 can't be perfect without you...miss you guys! lets wave to year 2008! bye forever

For this new year 2009....
i'm here wish all of you with all the best wishes...
all the best in study...
& may the relationship gets stronger....
forget bout the miserable pass and look forward...
but don't forget all the happiness we had...
Hope to see you again!..
bye

P/S: friends come & go and it proves.... no matter what... you'd made up a moment of my life... it's my precious.. thanks =)

Birthdays' Festival

2008-12-27T10:12:00.000-08:00

To: Birthday B&G on 11th, 17th, 20th, 21st, 28th December 2008....
This lighter had lighten-up your birthday cake..

Lighter: "HAPPY BIRTHDAY!" ^

Since all of these birthday boy/girl were sweet 18 this year....
surprise were given to these people respectively....
hope you guys had a memorable 18th birthday... =)
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Birthday 1
Date:11th December 2008
Time: 12:00 am
Avenue: Jacky's house
Casting: Jacky ( Birthday Boy ), nic, wengkit, ken ( 3 k-le-fair...~)

during msn....
jacky: " later wan yum cha?"
ken: " not feeling well leh... today.... find another day k?"
nic: " ken not feeling well... hmm leave you a call later...." (jacky was waiting..)
weng kit: " i don't know wor..."

jacky: " if no den i wan sleep d.. tiredz...."
-conversation stopped-

nic, weng kit and ken proceeded to jacky's house....
waiting and preparing in the car before 12...

11:59 pm
3 of us went down from the car...
nic was calling jacky..

nic: " eh where are you now? wan yum cha?"
jacky: " ok...bla bla bla( im not sure the conversation between them*)"

on my count...
(whispering) okay....
1, 2, go...

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU....."
(slowly walk towards his door step....)

Happy Birthday Jacky!

(though just 4 of us, hope you have a memorable birthday!)

present(s): secret... but 1 of it was best present ever!

P/S: i remembered your birthday since 2 years ago... remember that YU YAN SHENG that we used to be? some LEGAL document that me and nic did for you? haha... paham paham la XP...
hmm... forget the pass... and look forward.. though only 4 of us this time.... but its from the deep of our heart.. wish you have a sweet 18! smile~ and i would like to thanks you this brother... you are with me throughout my bad times and good times.... our times, our days in MBS i still can clearly see in my memories... hou heng dai! hmm.. please don't called yourself LONELY anymore...
you know you're not...
and you found the "book" that helps you to escape those loneliness...
congrat! im happy for you here...
be optimistic for your future...
i know you can do it....
not to afraid....
we are here for you anytime, anywhere....
there's nothing more than the trust of you to me...

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Birthday 2
Date:19th December 2008
Time: 2:00 pm....
Avenue: Green Box, Sungei Wang Plaza
Casting: Ming Xing ( Birthday girl ), chan chee, wan chee, ai xing, yi han, kit chai, ken( 6 k-le-fair...~)

this birthday is ganti for Ming Xing (My NS friend) on 17th of December by right...

while they are occupying the mics.....
wan chee and ken bringing in the big cake....
birthday song is now playing....

"Happy Birthday to you..." (english , mandrine, cantonese versions) Xp

he wished but didn't blow the candle....
since her beloved granpa just passed away...
let us morn for him...
he'll be ok in the heaven...
no worries ^^

HAPPY Be-lated BIRTDAY MING XING!!!!!!

gift: jay's latest album @.@ whua~ envy lea... haha... thanks us ar... XP jk jk

here is our camwhoring section~ Xp

me, wan chee, yi han, ming xing, ai xing, chan chee, kit chai

biscuit & cake XP

jimui forever!!!!!!^

Oi SANTA i wan cuter den you!
(definition of cute in dictionary: ugly but adorable... lolz) Xp

we are in the christmass! Merry be-earlier Christmass!!! XP

P/S: times like fly... already more than half a year we left our beloved camp... KEM KUBENA, SIPITANG, SABAH i miss you!!!!! haha.... as i still remember... you easily falls sick.... everytime i see you in the camp.... also sick one.... haha.. take good care of yourself la! truly hope you had a great time with us... wish you have a sweet 18 la! be happy always! see ya around!^

landslide had splited us.. i hope i can dream and go back to the camp and complete the things that undone.... love you guys... i will never forget the the day we used to be

our sweats* our tears* our songs*
i never forget, especially you

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Birthday 3
Date:20th December 2008
Time: 12:05 am
Avenue: Mei Zhen's house
Casting: Mei Zhen (Maison@Lui-Birthday girl), nic, jacky, ken ( 3 k-le-fair...~)

drove silently came to the front gate of meizhen's house....
nic is calling and swithed it to loud speaker...
ken: " lui, what time now?"
mz: "12:05 am lo... y?"
nic, jacky, ken: "HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU...."
mz: " whua... sei em sei o( cantonese- so exagerate?)? haha... thank you la loudou!..."
-hung up-

3 of us came down from the car...
and closed up the door silently....
nic called again....
(loud speaker of cause!! XP)

besides... we were lightening up the candles on the cake....

mz: " yea?..."
ken: " ei ei ei, not yet end la.... come come come.... mandrine version... "
nic, jacky, ken: "zhu ni sheng ri kuai le~ zhu ni...." ( birthday song)

walking towards the gate of mz's house...
and rang the bell....

mz: " wait ya.... bell is ringing... i check out first..."
(song is stil continue...)

came to the gate and put down her hp slowly....

mz: "omg.... didn't expected you guys were here!..."
(touched and burst into tears...Xp wei wei wei you also made me wana cry d...=p)
nic, jacky, ken: "surprise ma...."
nic: "nah racquet... it's from us... hope it suits you..." ^
mz: " (silent for a while, wipe off her tears) thank you la.. haha"

take 2~ haha... HAPPY BIRTHDAY LUI!^

p/s: lui... sorry ar.... loudou almost forget your birthday last year... hmm... doesn't mean to pay it back... but just hope you happy nia... =) forgive me k? before this i was so worried.. cause the cake got a little accident before reach you... hmm.. hope you don't mind la... =p
and ya... didn't know that you like play badminton... until the day i read your blog eh... haha...
hope you like the racquet la...^ its from nic, mac, jacky & me^ sweet 18 la.... dai gor lui la.... yiu sang sang seng seng.... Ooops.. really sounded like your old daddy d... Xp haha.. hmm.... next time go club don't forget me ya! haha XP take good care of yourself... love you la lui! eh yalo... since when you call me lou dou? remember? =)

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Birthday 4
Date:21st December 2008
Time: 12:00 am
Avenue: Kaki Corner
Casting: Yijia (Cloth hanger@Birthday girl), tze pei (cardboard), sook yeng, hew zhen, mac, janson, khai wen, ken ( 7 k-le-fair...~)

plan A failed...
since yj is busy in the morning....
unfortunately...
her bestie nic is back to singapore in the afternoon....
plan carried on in contact with nic....

the whole gang of us ( the TJK) went to mid valley in 2 cars....
get prepared for her birthday.....
we divided into half...
half go kaki corner set those "trap~"
another half go fetch her....

i still remember....
before reaching her house..
we came across a traffic jam....
i called her...
since she had busy for the whole day....
she is tired and kinda sick....
i called her...
ken: " i come and fetch you now ya....we go yum cha..."
yj: " hmm... kinda sick lea... next day ok ma?..."
(since everything'd set... i scared her miss it.... so i quite demanding... but feel a little guilty la... sorry ar.... hmm.. just hope you can celebrate your birthday on time....sweet 18 lea..=p )
ken: " i'm coming half way d wor... hardly we got most of us so free de.." ( infact, not even half Xp! mou gei d la..Xp)
yj: "who is there then?"
ken: "tp, sy, hz........."
yj: "ok la.... i get ready la..."
(T.T i can feel that she is tired)

arrived kaki corner about 11oo pm +/-...
blow water and have our dinner/ supper until 1200 pm...XP
haha...
cake brought out by hew zhen and me....
(birthday song is playing by our ownself....)
nah...
we know you like dark(bitter) chocolate la...
haha....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CLOTH HANGER!!! Xp don't chop me please

the gang of us~

the 3 besties~ ( sook yeng, tze pei, yijia)
"vote me" Xp

"guess who am i?..."
i'm quite annoying lea XP....kill me please haha

pick out the candle.... we swear won't push your head... hhee

"call me cat... dirty cat..." XP

Flash light is flashing inside the car....

i'm driving... no joke..

infront of yj's house... yj, ttp, sy, cc

the 3 bestie again~ envy lea? ^^

lastly they got the best shot...=)

-claps-

p/s: ei.... remember the first time we met? the genting trip in the end of 2005? and the first time you came to approach me at martin? we walk to the LRT together? and we chatted alot? before this.... i was truly down and silent.... you raised me up... you encouraged me... that time i'm touched... cause i never met the girl like you.... you are listed as one of the important person in my life.... i will never forget that you told me...you're comfortable to chat with me... and this had change my life... hmm ya.... almost forget to wish you! haha happy birthday la!!! sweet 18 ler.... and happiness never end yet.... trust me... XP
love ya friend! ^
once in a while i fell for you.... but yet i wana pull back that... cause i don't wana lose you... after so many incidents...now... i'm clear... and know what i should do...btw you're always my bestie! glad i met you =)
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Birthday 5
Date:28th December 2008
Time: 12:18 am
Avenue: my room
Casting: wengkit (mr right@Birthday boy), jacky , ken ( 2 k-le-fair...~)

supposedly nic is also celebrate his birthday with us....
but he is now in singapore....
so plan B...
again...
but this time only contact him a little through msn....
haha...
busy man....XP

me and jacky prepared....
and set up in my room...

through msn.....

ken: " wei i sat luin ar..."
cwk: " you got luin sat? haaha...."
ken: " i'm moody ar.... come over my house la... we chat..."
cwk: " i'm chatting with my friend wo.... see later how first..."
ken: " wei... im serious... if you don't come den not heng dai nymore...."
( again demanding XP haha....)
cwk: " ok la... i come la... gv me 5 mins..." (can sense that he is a little unwilling Xp.. see?
how good he are? yes.. i'm promoting him...hehe...)
(his house is really near... only less than 1 minute walk...XP)

-conversation stop-

swithed off the light....
lightened up the candle and jacky is prepared to snap him photo behind the door...
candle melted half....
finally he arrived...
my sister opened the door for him...
and asked him to come in my room himself....
( the way my sis ask.. was like something is happening lol...=.=)

jacky whispered...
"Ooops~ my shoes left outside your house! he saw it!"

jacky's GOOD job.. haha

(bloody hell...=.- he suspected more...)
cwk: (outside my dark room) " Ooo.. i know what happened d..."
lol...
(potong steam d lar!!! haiyo... this time failed to surprised him!!!)
haha... anyway...
wish he happy with the present that we gave him la....
CNY you got extra jeans!!! XP haha....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DUDE!!! FINALLY YOU 18!!!! haha... congrat

i failed to surprised him and ZADAO KAU KAU~! XO
selumble you!

cwk and jacky was msn-ing with the bloody nic... content is prohibited... haha XP

" don't come chor dai dee with me... you sure lose.." niahaha (evil smiles...) XP

P/S: haha.. what i can say was... friendship is miracle... its thing to do with fate.... like me and nic we knew each other since 2++ year old... if we know each other earlier.. i guess... we surely got 2 childhood friends in each of our life... haha...its just IF la...Xp nyway me and nic introduced to your life during our secondary school year... that time we were really close with your elder brother.... and now.... you too!!! haha... seriously i really don't know your existance before i enter our secondary school though we are so close apart... can't explain right?Xp miracle is the word then.. since the day i know you... i realized that you have good patience.... more than any people that i knew in our age... this is the thing i should learnt from you to slowly move away my tempered... and ya... before this me, nic and your brother were fighting with each other... it was like today was my arguement with nic... then tomorrow is your brother's turn... and you are always stuck in the middle... i can feel that now... and i might say sorry for that.... forgive me k? besides that... we have to thanks that too! if not we will never understand each other that much.. and now.... we have stronger bond between us... no matter what... we are stil in one..^^ glad to have you this heng dai...
im here just hope you have a very sweet 18 and fast fast find an AH SOU for me!!!! XP i can't wait to see that...Xp gar yau ar!!!! we are all support you here... all the best in everything...

HAPPY NEW YEAR as well!! haha =)
to you: please don't forget me as you have any new year planning =p haha i cant wait for that!!!

From: ken

"ROB & SNATCH" trend in MALAYSIA >>To everyone, especially MALAYSIANS.

2008-12-15T19:44:00.000-08:00

JACKY just got robbed!!!!

"Give me YOUR WALLET!"

wth....
that's not the only thing i'm crazy with...
you guess what...
the incident was happened below the unit that i lives...
its around 1 something....
jacky is rushing home to reaching his hungry grandma with the take-away "pan-mee" on his hand...
before that we (included nic, wengkit, jacky and me) were yumcha-ing nearby our housing area (between block C and B)...
suddenly down pour heavily then 4 of us change our location to nic's house (block B)....
and jacky left earlier right after the rain stop...
and wengkit went home by the same time...
jacky went home passing through my block (block C) and wengkit went the other way( he backed to block E safely)...
about 40 minutes plus & minus...
nic's phone rang while we 2 were chatting...

" i just got robbed, ask CC( refering to me) becareful while going back to his house" jacky said in the phone...
then continue by the conversation between me and jacky...
he said...

" i got robbed at your block"
" i got beaten up by those malay kids...."

the violent kids!

"5 to 6 of them.... around our age ( 18-19 if i'm correct)"
"you becareful la...."

i was like...
how could this happened?
there's no way else is safe and the place we live aswell!!

i still remembered TTP told me that her place recently got those bag-snatching cases happened around her housing area at cheras....
and hence she cannot go home late afterwards...
(indirectly way was saying that she couldnt yumcha at night with us already...)
now...
is my turn....
even my hengdai's house was not more then 150 steps from my house!
I HATE THOSE PEOPLE!!!!!!

lol~

1 thing very sarcastic i wanted to say here.... can you imagine "peoples" that are given priorities or special power and and-so-called higher status... came back to rob us that didn't have any priority and any obvious recognization???? we have been struggling and work hard for ourself.... for them.... they got government's aid.... given priority in anything.... don't you feel weird when particular of them still come back to us to rob us somemore??????!!!! i'm suspecting their ABILITIES in anything despite SNATCHING BAGS AROUND!!!!! it's really sarcastic.....
government should do something i guess....
*sobs* lol~

i feel so insecure nowadays....
in every single corner in this place....
its more like a hell i think..
when THOSE PARTICULAR ANIMALS are around.... FXXK THEM OFF!!!!!
P/S: this morning i feel so guilty.... and i couldn't sleep well... just now i should call nic to send you home... but i refused... i feel so sorry to you... if i did.... then this won't be able to happen... hope you still ok.... when you said to me.... "becareful while you walk home..." right after being robbed by those fxxkers.... i was touched... since they are around my areas... if i found who are them..
THEY

ARE

DONE!!!!!!!

Don't you feel THESE DOGS is familiar in everywhere?

to the readers: be extra careful in anywhere else.... especially in MALAYSIA.... snatch thieves are everywhere... they may not only take away your property but might take away your life too!!!! beware of them.... appreciate peoples around you and yourself too! take care of yourself.. take care of your family.... ESPECIALLY YOU =) we might not know what is going to happen next... just try our best to keep our life long^

NOTE: do not bring extra cash... use your cheap spare phone while having night walk especially in the city.... lessen those night-activities( yumcha, etc), be go home in big group if you want to...

-MOST of the patrol car is used for just DECORATIVE PURPOSE nowadays-

this is happening?

* i'm not trying to critic anything... it's just based on what i see and what i feel while i'm 18 year old* it is just depends on from which angle you look at this issue, please prove to me that i'm wrong.

Interior visual class

2008-12-15T03:25:00.000-08:00

this is my development after being 3 months in this college...

part of my life sketches..

the incomplete pencil set~

The leaves ( water drops really cacat Xp)

The dishes set~

My perspective drawings~

TOA Staircase~ ( too dark in some place i guess)TOA library~( wall got prob XP)

TOA discussion room~(the air cond so fake!!! haha)

J.Co Donuts Sunway Pyramid.

my stupid work during my holidays~Xp paiseh

Takeshi "mashi-maro" i guess~ lol Xp hhaha

lot more practice to go ar ..
gambateh la all of us!!!^^

hope i can draw better figure...
you guys really geng la!!! i really depressed when i saw you guys drawing figure by the first time.. really god like! Xp
all the best!

my second assignment (updated)

2008-12-14T22:01:00.000-08:00

this is my second "interior design 1" assignment~
the Expression Space...
(1 month pass~ 6th of November Xp)

aaron and his fire-flies~(mysterious~)

stella and her depressed heart~(depress~)

Ferri and his depress head~(depress again~)

mum and her mysterious house~( how many shadows you can see inside?~)

Jonson and his ELEGANT~^ nice one

stone and his depress opera house~(depress~)

kate and her mysterious~got mixed abit luxurious i guess^^(mysterious~)

andy and his temperature empty box~( try figure what is inside~ mysterious~)

katrine and her depressed board~she prefer her board more..~Xp (depress also~)

Me and my SPINING STAGE~(stress~) Xp

These are the closer looks of our model~

Elegant

Mysterious( simply love it... i feel its good... just the environment of the class is so disadvantage for you^ keep it up! i trust you can de! don't give up!!! =)

katrine's bloody effect with KEN'S receipe~ haha XP nice!

DEPRESSED~( they said they saw a head in the middle...can you see?)

The Depressed heart! whua~ claps^

Mysterious~(endless ties~)

Spinning Stress~( can you feel??)

The other part of my model~^

back~

front~

top~as i seperate them~XP

that's all la i guess XP~ haha

i wonder why mysterious and depressed is so popular~ Xp
u guesss what...
actually depressed is stress... stress is depressed Xp haha...

anyway i couldn't get highest marks this time...
i feel so sorry to you mum & dad T.T
but i will never give up

Fall To PISCES

2008-12-10T14:45:00.001-08:00

A very jobless work of mine~ XP

I looked away
Then I look back at you
You try to say
The things that you can't undo
If I had my way
I'd never get over you
Today's the day
I pray that we make it through

Make it through the fall
Make it through it all

[Chorus:]
And I don't wanna fall to PISCES
I just want to sit and stare at you
I don't want to talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just want to cry in front of you
I don't want to talk about it
Cuz I'm in Love With you

You're the only one,
I'd be with till the end
When I come undone
You bring me back again
Back under the stars
Back into your arms

[Chorus]

Wanna know who you are
Wanna know where to start
I wanna know what this means

Wanna know how you feel
Wanna know what is real
I wanna know everything, everything

[Chorus without last line]

[Chorus]

I'm in love with you
Cuz i'm in love with you
I'm in love with you
I'm in love with you

LOL~! i feel i was so stupid with it! an yet i'm so comfort with it!!!! OMG XP haha...
You Know Who You ARE!!! =p
nothing much but feel like entertain you throughout your boring days...
that 8-ing around peoples' blog~ haha
hope you don't Zadao yourself....XP

besides, i found this:

haha hope you like it la~ =)

i Can't sleep eh.. What to do?? haha

i think i get what you mean indirectly way la....
i won't force you....
as what you said take it easy lo...
anything la...
i'm just tell what i feel inside nia...
don't take it wrong or avoid me...
smth like that..=p
i like you! GUA~!!! haha

Blank post

2008-12-10T12:20:00.000-08:00

CAUTION: it's nothing much, you know i'm not the forcing or demanding type...
so no worries...^

hmm...
The feeling of...
I'm so unsure....
and yet...
i never feel this before...
I'm still wondering with my heart's decision....
am i running away?
i hope not...

everytime when came across relationship that more then a friend..
i'm really hate it...
and plan to runaway..
which i think i'm not ready or something...
this is not just once or twice times i faced this...
but more...

you know what...
i feel i'm immature enough to touch this kind of topic...
since i'm not experienced any before....
don't know la....
really confused...
i'm don't think myself can be a good bf...
but friend yes...
but if you won't mind to have a try to be mine...
i won't reject...
and
all is in your hand....
but i was worry...
i don't hope i'm the block of you if you found any guys better then me...
and i don't think i'm good enough...
but i will try...
k?

nothing much...
i'm just wanted to say...
i like you...
i'm not daring to say i love you...
since we are actually not knowing others for long...
i will say it..
only when it is truly from deep in my heart...
i'm just want to be with you...
am i have that such a chance?
you know who you are...
or else i'm the one thinking too much...
too bored..
haha..
Anyway i'm ok...
not trying to be emo either way^
its more like a messy post i think Xp

Sleep first ZZzzz.....

Tada I'm Back!!!!

2008-12-08T23:10:00.000-08:00

wow~
finally....
my first semester in TOA ended....
everything is feel like its been a year...
haha...
(so kwa~) XP

anyway...
i will take this opportunity to thanks everyone had been along with me during the whole sem..
i did enjoy with it...
Sorry if i did anything that hurts....
i doesn't mean that =p....
but theres an unexpected rapid changes between us in the recently november....
everything is like "popped" out....
what the heck is this?
but just can't help it...XP
take it easy then....
as long as i done my part and all the rest leave it to you guys ler....
since its depends on both sides....
and during these days....
i feel myself is being isolated..
i hope i was wrong....
but yet...
i'm relief....
ever since the misunderstanding occurred between me and you guys half a month ago....
everything is seems so disadvantage for me....
but i sense that the relationship of you guys is getting better....
before this was like back-stabbing here and there....
keep it up!
i'm happy to see that...=)

haha....
Happy Holiday!
Happy be earlier New Year & Merry Christmas!!!
Enjoy ya!
to those going back to Indonesia....
wish you all the way back safely..
See you around^
and i will take this time to update my blog then....
since theres quite a number of draft pending....Xp

honestly i really don't feel like continue my study here anymore....
i hate this kind of atmosphere....
but....
i wont give up....
especially you guys....

Friends

2008-12-05T09:46:00.000-08:00

still remember the 1000 words assignment? i had done it and submitted by pass few weeks ago.. but yet don't really have my time to blog it up..Xp Anyway i'm hereby to thanks everyone that had gave me a hand in it...XP And friend. i found you... and i owe you too! haha... and ya... from that assignment, i do found out a way in differentiate types of friend and as a reciprocation and appreciation.... this is especially for you guys...Xp

here is the outcome....

NOTE: the term of friend can be anything, its depends on where you stand... and the following is the types of friend that see from my angle...

8 Types of Friend

True friend
no doubt, they are always true to you no matter what and they will be there whenever you needed them. Unconsciously, they are willing to sacrifice for you without any reason. The one that you can trust, really care about and can share almost everything either happiness or sadness.

Childhood friend
you knew them during young age and can be one of the important people in your life or just a normal friend. It will just depend on how you treat this friendship.

Temporary-close friend
you can be very close with them only for temporary period. After that, you may rarely be in touch with them or might not in contact anymore.

Work friend
you spend time with only in the school or in the work place that you rarely see them anywhere else.

Supportive friend
they support everything you do, guide you as you in trouble and cheer you up when you are moody.

“Hi and Bye” friend
this kind of friend is most commonly introduced to you during some circumstances, such as the first day of school and especially all of you were new for the place (easy to make friends) or else you knew them through your friend, a friend of a friend which you wont go deep into the conversation or understanding between each other or maybe just a simple “hi” or “bye” when come across with each other.

Friend on benefit
you will only figure them when they met troubles and they found that you are really useful on that certain situation. Contrarily, as if you come to any troubles they were not be there or were running away from you.
(So mean!)

Net friend
it is someone like a pen-pal whom you knew them through the technology of communication. For nowadays, it is common after the invention of “Skype”, “MSN messenger”, “Friendster”, and etc. They are good in keeping your secrets or may not have the chance to spread it. Hence, you can share your feelings comfortably. They may well understand you through alphabets but it is dangerous sometimes as they know too much about you.

SO which type are you in?

Friend in indeed is friend in need...
for some people they will think it is FRIEND IN NEED comes first...
and its so sarcastic when this particular person try express it everywhere what is true friends and gave a very surface explanation... and thought it is... for this particular people... i would like to said that... its so stupid... Cause when the time you feel you gain something from someone, actually you lost it all... you may lost trust... you may lost yourself... you may lost your self-confidence.... etc... you'll never realize... until you lost everything... and sat down, cry and really consider about it.... and by this time.... you gain something... this is the one and you called true friend.... they will always appear as you were in trouble... the one and so called true friends may running away from you... cause he/she doesn't want to mess with you around... they will just appear for something they want from you... you know who you are.... PLEASE do not complain on what you deserved.... ask yourself... you have your choice to be either way...

for me... its simple...

friend is referring to someone that does not have any blood relationship,
not always by your side
and yet you will never forget him or her.

you know who you are =)

depressed smiling heart

2008-12-05T01:14:00.000-08:00

these is my down flow in life...
i think the conflict is started by the day i became a leader of a group which in 6 members in size...
its about few weeks ago....
and everything changed...
from a peaceful college life transform to a really annoying environment....
friendships gone...
and rumors had played an fantastic game between us...

and i admitted that i got a little hot-tempered recently...
i think you guys figured it...
if i not mistaken i think i am pressured myself too much...
when i got tired and assignments is pending...
especially when someone in the group encouraged you to become leader but don't tend to follow you...
P/S: i Know you are busy too! why don't you just talk to me? but talked behind me? Don't you feel yourself got a little over? Seems like put me on the table... i really disappointed... i treat u as friend but you treat me like fool!

i was so frustrated...
at first i was so excited and asking others for sketches and mock-up models....
cause idea and sharing is needed and important for the project....
since i was the leader....
and i treat you guys as friend...
i don't really hope to put my idea at first...
so i asked you guys to do the sketches too...
i'm not tend to order you or anything...
but what you guys gave me?
reasons that can't make it?????
i can... why you can't???

ok fine....
come out with the project....
in tend to maintain our friendship....
and i failed to be a leader of you..
and which you never appreciate....
i quited as a leader....
and you became the one successful leader....
which that never contact me or never even a message about the progress....
especially the budget you guys had discussed about....
why i'm the last one who know?
Some more it is not from you guys?
despite a member from a group do you still treat me as a friend?

and now...
the big secret is being sealed....
and most of you pointed at me....
and said i'm the one who spread it?
and especially you..
if you got any comments for anyone...
or you have anythings you are not clear and you want to know...
or you suspect someone....
why don't you just go direct to the person and make clear of it?
why must always form a little group and discuss about and add in some of your very own comments?
i just don't understand this kind of habit which you don't know that you are having....
is it really fun to do that?
if you want to know the story behind this rumor...
you can always refer to the one that you heard from and keep asking until you found the source...
i mean if you really want to make clear bout it...
and i don't really like being blamed especially its not my fault...
its a little bit dull here...
after being blamed by you....
you brought another 2 follower...
to discussed about this secret sealing issue...
why the other 2 so quiet?
and you are the one who got lots of questions and opinions....
so why don't you try to solve it privately?
why must always do things in such exaggerate way?
what is your motive?
misunderstanding?
angry?
or want gain concern of the crowd?
lol~*sick*

and this is you..
still remember the first time you complain to me of some other guy in our class that you don't like?
i was shocked....
from the external...
i really don't feel anything about you and him....
and you could come out with words that really kill that guy...
afterwards...
i found that....
actually this guy is not the one that you complained that bad...
since that is only few weeks we got knew each other....
you already started with those of attitude..

now....
your target is me.....
so....
aim me....
why aimed others too?
they are more innocent than i am....

as compare to you guys....
i don't think im in priority in anything...
i'm poor....
i'm good in nothing....
but you guys?
what you want you can get it easily...
you want drive...
you have cars...
you want eat better...
you got money....
you feel not happy and wanted back-stabbing anyone..
you can just stab and you wont care and wont feel guilty about...
you want come here and be the selumble one...
you can always do....
and you can act cool with it....
and i'll always be the one who always worried and impatient...
be the clown for you...
and you wouldn't realize...
cause you won't care bout others feeling....
you just mind how people look at you...
and wont think about what is the affect for the one that you had back-stabbed...
which really innocent....
i know its not a crime and i don't have the rights to sound this all out...
but how you think if this thing fall on you?
you may say...
"so what?"
so ask yourself...
and please don't try complain for the things you deserved....

P/S: there are lots of mask in our life... when you want to trust someone....please do really observe....do not be the hypnotized one.... when you started to suspect anyone.... please do suspect the one that you trust the most... i mean do not simply go blame others... closest friend may love you until they give away their life... closest friend may also kill you silently....when you are being utilized... don't be sad... cause it proves that you are useful.... you should sad when no one tend to use you... cause it shows that you are actually useless... so be a smart when being use...

To you: Actually she is so close with you...ask her...not me... if you still feel i am the one who reveal it.... try ask the whole class and the source that you know... don't always guess and discuss it in a small group... its really unfair for others....

To:
hey killer...
i know you are reading... you know who you are.... i can be your victim this time.... and this time you can runaway... but remember.... you can fool all the people at a time.... but not all the people at all the time..
this time i have to praise you... you are smart! all the best ya killer...

I CAN BE A GOOD FRIEND
I CAN BE THE BAD ENEMY of yours as the victims is out of my boundary.

HELP ME~! T.T

2008-11-18T12:23:00.000-08:00

currently im doing survey for my thousand words report....
im jz having 2 questions & wish to have response from anyone of u...
so as if u willing to...
and here are the 2 questions in the following:
-is that easy to maintain a good friendship?
-what is friend? (be honest, in your own opinion(s))

just kindly post it as comment...
ur response is needed and is much appreciated.
thank you ya^

for ur information next week is my dateline....T.T

as a reward:??? u can get a kiss from me...mayb?haha..Xp jkjk
(im juz trying to expresss tat..i reli nid ur help la =))

-ken- 4:35 am

2008-11-15T08:13:00.000-08:00

streamyx was down in my apartment for the whole week!!!!!....T.T
and theres suddenly combo of coursework....
lol...
will update soon...
To ID-088-1: all the best for coming assgnments....
gambateh^!

new task~

2008-11-07T02:05:00.000-08:00

wa....today we went DRAGON-i after the bloody M'sia study...

this black-shop sometimes its really killing my wallet...XP

( i think this week abit too over d...wallet was like 'keep bleeding~ keep keep bleeding'...Xp haha)

i spent 15 for the balck pepper pork chop with fried rice i think....XP

WALAU~ i think i wana have hair trim d...XP lol~ no wonder my mum scolded me recenty =p

Mum busy on hp besides having dessert..and ya this is our MUM pretty young huh?!! Xp

Kate with mango pudding i think...wei looks abit pale ar..maybe cause of yesterday...rest more la..=)

then 2 together...

"wo dip"!!!! it reminds me bout every wedding of my father-side relatives..but here nt so good they made..=(

MunYean: " don't kacau me makan..."

my honey-dew sago...Katherine as background...haha...Xp please don't sit on me if you realized this...

u guess what..

suddenly kate asked for which dessert is nice while pointing them in the menu....

at first i really didn't realize anything...

stupid sial....

after i gave suggestions..

she ordered secretly..

not just single one...

but for few of us....

lol...

really feel so surprised k..

its really not cheap....

its atleast 8-10 or above just for a little....lol

i think she is trying to "revenge" for our yesterday...

aiyo...

really feel nothing for yesterday la....

we all willing to help geh...

if we didn't care bout you by that time and just chau~..

then i don't think we treat you as friends lo...

^^ appreciate it then....

we are there cause we are really worry bout you ma...

if either one of us face that..

you also will be there aswell right? =)

anyway thanks for the desert la....

i think you feel better now^

went pinky class after that...

today CLS....

we got a big assgnment i think..

(for me la...really...)

since long time never practice writing essay after SPM....

900- 1000 words report!!!!

(i heard my friend said at apiit.. they have 2000 words report....siao!!!!!)

siao d really~!!!!

by the way....

i nearly fell asleep in the class...

due to the weather....

i'm just not feeling well...

headache....

hate it la...

glad miss pinky is so understand didn't wake me up...

sorry to you o...

not your class bored la...

*hope you see this* =)

nyway i was kind of blur bout the details..

since i fell asleep 3 times if i not mistaken..

( lo l~ ! i got count!!!!! Xp)

i'll find out as im doing i think...

cause its really need bunches of time to digest all your information that given to us for this assignment ...

oO ya....

remember last week that critic you gave me?

i did really mind that...

i think i have to work lot harder on language....

cause i think what you said is right...

i still not yet discover the true ken...

infact i'm just influencing by the media i stick to..

doesn't have own style..

and i really struggling in it..

sometimes i really feel myself so retard...

when comes to learning....

or accepting new information...

is it called as conservative?

which i think im not really ar...

its just depends on mood most of the time..

and not feel really happy at first when i heard it..

ayway i think its true enough...

i will practice more on reading...

thanks ya^

P/s: was being so emo recently...really that desperate am i? or i'm under stress? how come i feel like i'm losing my self-confidence????hey where are you ken... wake up leh T.T....i was so tired... didn't hope to think beyond which i never do....i feel like spending my time sleeping on bed rather then expose myself to public....lol...how come???

I need you

it's an accident

2008-11-06T05:08:00.000-08:00

lol...

macy class cancelled!!!

thought wana present IT today....

since she said she is sick....

and hence postponed to next monday lo...

so next monday...

is the day^

anyway i really disappointed la..

cause been busy for past few weeks and extremely sleepless for pass few days....

its all for today....

now was like...
abit potong steam d...lol

but its good also la...

to let us to be more prepared..=)

so our plan B was.......

go damansara to watch THE QUONTUM OF SOLACE!!!

(Aaron'd been waited for long...hee good for you^)

this is the latest 007 ~

everyone was so excited...

after technical drawing class...

its around 3 something....

we proceed to damansara...

in two group....

guys is with andy...

(ferri, aaron and me)

girls is with kate...

(stella, katherine)

we were speeding all the way...

(in andy's car)

lol~

SYOK...

guess what..

suddenly...

i heard noises of HONS from the back.....

but i'm still don't know what happened...

until aaron said..

"Oh Shit... i think kate got in the minor accident..."

so we decided to head back the incident place....

we turned a big round to get back there...

since its kind of highway lol....

he called kate...

what we knew from that was....

she crying...

was really worry la...

about few minutes...

we reached them...

and the car of those car dragger...

with walky-talky along reached even more earlier then us!!!

can you imagine how efficient they are?

( something do with $$ leh....)

we are on the way to damansara in LDP(Damansara-Puchong)...

its opposite road-side of wisma sawit....

besides the majlis of bandaraya kelana jaya( a big~ garden...)

no doubt the front of the kate's car got minor crashed...

and ya...

its involved 3 cars!!!!!

(she is the last one while malay woman kancil is sandwiched in the middle and led by a chinese guy vios...)

kate's Myvi

the minor injured vious....

the little sanwiched kancil~front

back....

since she is jz got her "P"....

you understand that feeling?

i was like don't know what can do..

helpless la...

since i'm not experiance in it...

(and doesn't hope to!XP)

glad andy is here....

thanz lot lo^

(credit to him...)

the incident i'm not really clear...

but

from what i heard...

the kancil is from the juntion and turning out before kate...

and suddenly she pressed the break paddle ( something do with E-brake....) after she came to the main road...

and no doubt....

she kissed the butt of HER kancil...

and SHE kissed the vious infront~

sandwich lo~

so whose fault now?

paham paham la....

at first the malay woman was so frustrated....

(it can be seen from her look la...)

and tend to report only....

(since she is not happy with something lol...)

seems like not cooperate at all...

since kate called her friends...
and they are on the way...

she also called her 2 brethen.....

(really looks alike- plum & round~)

(wa...like wana fight...haa...actually didn't la...just want to discuss nia...just simple^)

the chinese guy is so kind...

he is like...

anything just up to us...

just we have to deal with the malay woman...

& was drizzling....

we was waiting under rain for while....

and i still remember the convo between andy and katherine...

Andy: Malaysian is so corrupted but its fun sometimes... (so no worries about the license...lol)

katherine: ...( stunted and burst in laughs.....since there is a english speaking malay was at the back....hope you get what i mean...Xp)

its about almost 5....

everything ended up with report at police station...

(hope everything is gona to be alright....=))

relief when saw kate's parents was not scolding her...

i can feel that warm...

To kate: theres no one is built to be perfect and theres no one who does not make any mistake...it sometimes can say its fate ba...no one hope to have accident also...no pain no gain...next time really have to be alert lo...but not take it as a impact...i think your parents is so understanding...they also don't want to see you cry la.. its really sour to see that... cause they love you...take a deep breath and have a good rest ba..don't think so much ya since the result also don't know yet..don't try go and guess and make yourself depressed..and doesn't help..and it takes time la...+ OIL LO!^

after she went back....

we all squized in andy's car....

and katherine...

sat infront...

why her???

hehe....

you know i know la...XP

ok..

we went to have indonesian food at AYAM PENYET...

did anyone heard bout it?

if i not mistaken it is quite famous in indonesia....

its EXTREMELY SPICY but yet its so TASTY!!!

( wiping my saliva that dropped on keyboard now...haha can you imagine???)

really satisfying lunch+breakfast for me..

don't know others haha....

we went sunway pyramid to continue with plan C.....

( watch the QUONTUM OF SOLACE at sunway pyramid...)

while we going up to the car park...

which is on the slanting area....

andy suddenly stopped his car at the side while we chatted about something do with WEIGHT....

and released the break and hence its rolling down....

he said: " see? because of YOU la.... if not this car can go up very smooth but not reverse...."

everyone in the car was laugh like hell...

(but the OBJECT was really speechless la...XP)

we have a random walk before the movie start at 6.15 pm...

pity katherine was in her high-hills...

(thought today presentation so she wore it...sobs~)

then we went A&W just for our root-bear with float....

its 6.15!!!!!!

ITS SHOW TIME!!!!

haha...

starting was really excited until the voice of us can be heard by everyone in the cinema...XP

you know what....

i nearly fell asleep twice....

( for your info..i nearly fell asleep once in the casino royale...so theres a development i guess)

i was so disappointed with the story-line...

but just tend to see what they have in the new gadgets of Bond....

Zzzzzzzzzzzz....

-end-

to someone: its something like combo for you today...we just be so annoyed to you maybe...and from deep in our sincere heart i can say we really doesnt mean of every word that really hurt you...just try fooling around nia...Xp hope you really don't mind.. and i know you won't! cause you're really kind....and hence we like you very much seriously..^ smile

P/S: mood was so unstable today....suddenly full of disappointment and suddenly full of joy...after have a bath here now..im just feeling like flat mood... something like +posi- + -nega- = zero...haha...nyway thanz andy for sending me home until under the block... and thanks for the two SMART security guard~ XP

Coming Up EXPRESSION SPACE & MODEL

2008-11-04T01:51:00.000-08:00

This is the coming up topic

presentation for the second assignments falls on this coming thursday...

(i'm nervous no joke...and yet excited^)

this is part of it...

what you see for the first sight?

Hey guys!

enjoy the process...

Wish you guys all the BEST!

and hell ya...

to MACY: WE ARE COMING!^

-Good Luck-

wish me luck o^

(i mean if you wish to la...haiyo =p)

IM NOT MISSING YOU AND SO YOU^

Splash Party!!!!

2008-11-01T05:46:00.000-07:00

tuesday...
pinky class....
bt reading passage....
back home....
rush model again
tired man...
wednesday!!!!
splash party!!!!!!
it reminds me bt gila...
went aaron apartment..
since kate is tired ....
so let her rest 4while...
katherine did something do with gas,,,,
haha...
you know i know la...!XP
then we compare our leg hand mouth tounge...
haha..
mou liu til''
speechless la..
thursday...
me kate mum katherine...
go take away
MCD....
then went to aarons house to do our discussion...
and a little preparation for ms tomorrow....
since TL class canceled~XP
and ya...

i'm late for Macy's class...
macy late as well~
wakakaka..Xp
evil me..

most of the time we was rushing d presentation tomorrow...
suffocated la..
aiks...
here model and here came the blooddy ms ....
which no marks....
no point...
anyway...
we will learn something in it ba....
gain some experience speaking in front crowd...
b positive lo....

friday...
presentatiion day!!!!
wow...
was realli nervous...
i shook!!!!
severely wtf~!!!!
nyway...
it went fine after i speak...
haha...

after that
we went pancake again...
kate knocked up with her jimui..
Aaron and ferri thought she is from the cut above...
ferri:" hey i awana go cut above!"
aaron:" i also i also.."
ken:" i will pay 20 as if it is 10!"
lol~~~
leng lui leh...
boh bian..
but...
disappointed tat
she is not from cut above...
lol zadao~
XP

for this meal~
15 bks boliao!!!!!
lol~

by the way...
today was a really bad weather,....
warm...
uncomfortable...
unsecure....
i'm feel so hollow inside...
chat alot v tzepei after awoke in d middle of the nite...
haha...
contain is prohibited heree...XP
saturday...
wheee~
go home again...
but seems no weekend d feel anymore( as like previous....)
assignments AR!!!!!
shit...
T.T
printing...
rush...
since i don't have pc to use for whole week
since my room-mate having exploration week
and me...
not yet have 1
lol~~~~
thanks andy a lot...
he help me ding zai( help me pay 1st since i 4gt to bring my money lol.....)
nasi campur~~~!!!!!
rice taufu 1 egg 3 fish balls... 4.50$ wtf~!!!!

i swear i dun eat ady..XP

bck home..(rush lol)
sien la....

That's the end for this week~

MALAYSIAN STUDY RUNNING IN TOA

2008-10-24T04:36:00.000-07:00

A.K.A -BAD times-

wow....

again i frustrated with the class....

evry1...
remember...
its famous..

and please complain bout her....

i don't mind if YOU see this....

FAZILAH is getting off my nerve!!!!!!

its too over...

now..

she'd stop lecturing us...

but black-mailing with her marks that she going to give to us for MS....

lol...

wth...

and this the golden words....

" evry group of you is going to lecture this class for the coming weeks...."

(lol....is it we pay her for torture ourself? not only that i oso dun feel i got anythg after her class..infact we are attend for our attendance thats it...which i feel it is really force us to do so...AND WHY?????)

"because while i'm lecturing all of u make noise...and make a lot of noises....so i decided in this way...."
(lol....if this happens.....means you is having your own problems....is it your responsible to correct urself...or it is our responsible to overcome the weakness in you? think about it...don't forget you are getting pay not us....and ya..we have our rights whether to listen or not...its not secondary school o local u...it is college...sorry if i say anything wrong)

(if we lecture the class isit we have any marks or wad? and how bout others?)
"yes you'll have 5%... and others will got deduct marks if one of them make noise..."

(lol....how bout if nxt time our time to be the audience?)
" ya...will be deducted as any1 of u make noise...."

(i'm sure that is about 5 weeks o more to end our this ms...so....surely there'll be sum1 hu make noise...and 1 marks is deducted once a week....so...its equal to zero????!!! so what the point we doing this?????)

" ya you'll get nothing....but if you refused to do...you will be getting negative and it will bring to your exam... and as you failed....you'll come back to my class again next SEM..."
(LOL!!!! is it black-mailing with the marks??? the only she can do????? so is it this is the professional in her????? speechless d...)

"do you ever heard about NAZI's method? (smth like napoleon...)

(lol...OO please clear bout who are you and are you really did your best and get enough trust or respect from us? please la....)

"i know some1 is angry with me.... i don't care..."

( lol...y she have to say so?is it she is trying to revenge or smth????? childish man....)

ok...
now you'll be asking me...
why i don't complain to her on the spot...

i try but yet i didn't..

cause i really don't want to re-sit her class again....

since she is deducting our marks(LOL!!! again MARKS!!)..

remain good impression lo...

what to do?

aix...

hope you understand...

* before you correcting others, please correct yourself first...

and if you wanted ppl to respect you... at first you have to respect other first... no pain no gain.... life ain't that east that you really think!! you get the pay and hence you deserve it!! cause there is no force... but you chose to!!!! LAZY YOU!!!! AND GIVING ALL THE LAME REASONS!!! YOU ARE MUCH ELDER AND YOU SHOULD HAVE MATURED THINKING THAN ME!! A 18 YEAR OLD TEENS IS TALKING THAT TO YOU! CAN YOU IMAGINE HOW WORST YOU REALLY ARE!!! IS SUCH A WASTE.....*

chill~ chill...

really cant stand for it la!..

and i don't know why...

i'm losing my patience nowadays....
i really have to relax my mine...
feel like chatting to you guys man..
but all is busy....

aix...

-GOOD times-
ok....
now...
its time for us to relax...
haha...
we went sunway pyramid...
to have lunch....
1st plan to say shushi de....
ofcourse i have no idea la...
haha..
" i don't think can fill my stomach vry much...."
aaron said...
and so do i....
hhaa...Xp
dull man~
its smth to do with our currency k?!!!!
haha

and hence...
we decided to eat at "pancake..."
we thk its much more cheaper and worthy...
mana tahu...
its juz nice in the menu...
but its really less in quantity when it is on plate...
ahah..XP
feels like SiONG CEH d...Xp
here it is...

and bsides tat

we took photos!!!!

casting: kate lol~

went stella house to continue our history journal....

wow...
its lazy you know?
haha...
we watch tv!!!!
since her apartment got astro!!!!
since i long time din really lie on the sofa and enjoy switchting channels and stick to channel [V] and MTV aswel!!!! misss that man~
i really feel relax now...
=)
but yet i still done part of my journal la...
no worries....
haha...

P/S: recently i feel like u are like dont really like to chat v me isit anything'd happened?

Im Sad

we said....

2008-10-23T03:28:00.000-07:00

its been 2 weeks ago....

we are given a task to build up a space which is full of expression...

in size 9000 times 9000 mm....(scale 25:100)

Happy>>>>> stress lol

was really dizzy and stress when come to the mock-up model....

after ydae class i straight away get back home....

to start my mock-up model...

i'd plan to build a spinning cage....

red light effect by red L.E.D to shows anger and alert...

and place an object in the middle to be "torture" by my "stress" environment in the box ...

the object remain or stay still while the cage full of mirrors is surrounding and reflecting the the red light to the object and to all directions....

lastly....

it done by this morning..

8 am....

after mum's call....

"WTF!!! it's already 8!!!"

thought wana rest for awhile yesterday after really frustrated in solving the gear problems between the spinning cage and the small motor that i'm using...

it did not really turn but stuck...

so..

i plan to rest for awhile before i continue it since i'm so tired...

then....

aix...

ok rush!!!!

i fix it with a bigger motor which usually used by the remote control car.....

lol~

it works!!!

so happy!!!!!

wow....

prepared evrythg and proceed to coll...

its about 10....

but todays class is 930..ok

so m late again =p

lol...

its the interior visual class comes first....

so there is still time for me to show up my model....

and most of us are nervous for the tutorial..

since we are so unsure what SHE will goin to do with our plan...

whether is it ok o run out frm the topic....

Aaron: "shit...look at my LED....it problems...."

yean: " sei lo(cantonese)...scared she later will say it( which she mentioned few weeks ago for her very first assgnment...."is it thats all only you have in you for one week?!" its hurt..) again to me..."

kate: " aix....duno what to place in the middle of my model...(since it is kinda blank o hollow inside...)"

katherine: " eh help me to join the circuit....(something to do with the light effect for her model....)"

mum: "duno later she will accept o not... im nervous..so lets chit-chat to let me forget.." Xp

jonson: "materials....plastic shinny exterior....hmm...(stressing emotion....)"

stella: " eh i want see your model....."

ferri: "i didnt bring my model..."

stone: " isit u call it mysterious?(to someone and it hurts lol)"

andy: " hey stone....bla bla bla.....haha"

alex: " wow so nice your model...."

boh mee: " my brother sang it....(it sounds so pro like a star..its true...a korean~)"

ken: " chill... be posstive in thought..."(actually i'm nervous too =p)

Xp....

i skipped my lunch....

since i didn't have much appetite...

and continue with HER tutorial....

one by one tutorial with her...

and then my turn....

"its interesting....i think you can add in the....."

phew~ she likes it!!!

then i think...

this time i'd really full-used of my sleeping time...

haha...

it worth!!!!

nth much but i'm just like to hear the word "interesting" again...

so now i have to proceed to my final model d....

wait and see..

but i think now i have nap first....

hehe....

tired la...

since these few days never got enough sleep...

P/S: to sum1- i think u have to learn to speak in different situation and try control the words that will cum out frm you...sometimes its hurting....what i know was..you are stage-actor...and a good actor as well...u should've very understand peoples feeling just by looking at them...what's your motive? i'm really curious and wondering....attention seeker??? i think ya....lol...sorry if any...i'm just tell wad i feel...

i feel so bored on my own....

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2008-10-21T11:07:00.001-07:00

LCS~

became the SEXIeST in the class(lecture call wan a.r....T.T)

due to my standing posture....
(Which like a fashion poser~lol is it?)

lol.....

after class we went sunway pyramid again....

(i nearly feeel like vomit d...Xp)

den we had our dinner at ayam penyet?

is it?

haha...

its nice but totally spicy and hot!!!

aaron's favourite....

and yet despite the chillies~ haaa...

being annoyed by them...

haha...

not angry la...

just speechless...

katrine found me and aaron a part-time job....

so...

thanks her lo...

but not yet confirm leh...

will consider k? =)busy my models again....

-end-

2008-10-20T15:21:00.001-07:00

*previous post updated*

Random Shots~

2008-10-17T05:21:00.000-07:00

wow!!!didnt know tat i can capture picture tat pro!!!

(for ss purpose..nothing more...haha...Xp)

its a sunny day after class..
me and one of my classmate....
Aaron whom is from Indonesia....
a fever of shooting too!!!

Here is some of my result of shooting in the garden after rain~XP enjoy

duno wad leaves~Xp

er...don't know what Flower again....

i love this!!! how bout you? =)

leaves~

leaves plus purple flower....

uppermost of a plant~

the reflection~

this is Aaron..." eh stop at this pose... let me take photo...XP"

Spot an ant...can u?

white Lily

tired and yet its full-filled day...

and relax...

but yet its really stress since I'm so aggressive to b one of the best again...

my model will be the next in the exhibition hall!!!

(evil smile....)

you guys all are really great!!

love u all friend!

its been really stress yesterday!

-end-

Interior Design Project 2

2008-10-16T03:36:00.000-07:00

despite the fine art class which shading for few objects in kitchen..

yesterday was all the day sketching for my interior design 1 project 2...

something to play with emotion or expression in a interior space (which to do a model la...)

but this time is kinda tough since it is not so detailed the lecturer explained...

so there's luxurious, elegant, depressed, stress, and etc...

i'd chose HAPPY...

since everyone of us also seeking for happiness..

and i'm more to my surrounding people....

(My family of course!!)

and hence i'm required to do mind-mapping Or "bubbles" about...

what happy actually i'm think it is...

and i did some research...

and here it looks like...

and today have to show it to our respectful lecturer...

is a she la..

haha...

so everything we "cari makan" also base on her already...

Xp haha( since she is the one guides and gives marks de)

so sometimes you might come out with product which you had great effort in and you feel is best among your others design...

and things ain't going that smooth...

you'll found that it's not it obviously can be proved by my project 1...

there is 3 models enquired....

and the one i think is the best....

she felt just normal...

and she picked the one that i simply formed..

and say...

it's the best among all the models i did...

and it also been chosen as one of the best in my class....

lol...

can you imagine?!!!

and today....

you know what..

i show her my sketches for the coming project 2....

she didn't even have a look in what i branches out HAPPY that meant for me..

and said..

" its not enough..."

what the...

fine...

the feeling was like...

my effort for days is like turned to dust in a second....

lol....

moody la...

(still can cope with it la..no worries^...)

i think i really needed to calm down before i proceed forward...

aix...

it's worsen by tomorrow exam...

MALAYSIAN STUDY!!!!!

lol~

feel like dying man....

aix....

what to do? =(

all the best la...

hopefully it's as easy as ABCs..

haha...

wish me luck ya!^

P/S: as in design field....we really need to encounter this...everthing we design is really based on the client just like exactly of what i'm doing is all based on the lecturer...but not what actually we like....since every single of us have different point of view..

the value of the product is just depends on anyone.. sometime we do feel that we'd put alot of effort in it but yet not get any appreciation that expected...and we really have to surrender to the sentence..."work SMART but not work HARD!" and i know i'm new... so it's strange for me of course... i think most of you also gone through right? lol.. i wish i'm still not late to face this... All the best to all my classmates for the coming weeks and this project too~wish me luck again hehe

feel like pour all my feelings to you.. but i guess you are busy too.. i miss you

There's NOTHING About Exam

2008-10-14T12:25:00.000-07:00

fell as sleep....
and awoke...
and again..
and these'd repeated for i think more than 4 to 5 times...lol
as i was in my room...
doing those assignments and REVISION(is it correct spelling?haha i guess i'd forgotten right after my SPM~) aswell!!
haha...

today english test la...
was throughly nervous since i'd been long ago never sit for any test!!!
(despite the driving license's...the last time i sat was SPM!!!! can you imagine?!!!)
as im on9 i can c tat most of us...
are asking the same question...
" eh you study d? what you read? how's the test later?..."
see? everyone is so excited haha...

again after some works....
i slept again...
and awoke by nearly 12 noon...
(pig huh?!)
continue anything and so-called revision...
infact i was flipping-through...
cause i have no idea how the test will be!!!!
be optimisic then...Xp

its 3.40pm...
(class is by 3.30pm as written in the schedule...)
once again..
i'm late....
but i'm glad....
cause this CLS (communication language skill) class....
is always long and hence the class before us...
she(yes is a SHE..) is still conducting...
so most of the time we'd been waited outside for about 10 minutes maybe..
and the place were warm and it makes me sweat!!!!
thats the only thing i don't really like...

ok...
its the exam time!!!!
(in facts it is no any special..)
haha...
this time i really no comment...
its something to do with grammer...
phrase...
idioms...
and the communication skills that we'd done last last week~
(the very first presentation~)
for everyone of us...
its a piece of cake or as easy as ABC..
you wanted to know?
but...
it keeps within the four walls...
its prohibited here..hehe~Xp
for any info...
you can always move your fingers to text a turtle and so called "CAN"...
he CAN tell you...
XP

class ended early today....
(usually it will be lengthen...but once its shorten...hehe *winks*)
hang around S.P for accompanying kath to get her McD's OREO ICE CREAM!!!!
*yummy*
feels like...
"stay away from me.."
( i love dessert ! lol...it sounds more like a girl Xp)
cause this dessert thingy will really "lighten" up my wallet..
haha...getting poor la Xp

we are lucky....
(me & aaron)
just right after kate got herself a SMALL-sized formal MNG slakes....
she knocked up with us...
(need to say sorry?lol~ Xp)
since she will pass by our apartment...
and once again..
we TUMPANG her car again~^..
she is so kind!
i think i'd fell in love with her....
CAR la...Xp
(save sweats~^^)

went aaron place to finished up my GRID LINES technical drawing...
(since it enquires a big table...and i don't have it here..)
and we chatted a little...
*the contain is prohibited*
haha...
it came a little rain here after i'd done my grid lines~
we went to have our dinner together...
its in the opposite building of his....
we odered fried rice....

[" noon-meal-pork"("em chan yuk"- cantonese) + egg + rice] x fried=
And So-Called Fried Rice (yup..i only agreed with the word "fried" and it cost me bout RM4.50!!!!)
lol~ i think it already too much la!!!
(but it is normal at sunway..lol)
you know what..
as if anyone'd asked me about....
"any tasty food recommended in bandar sunway ar?"
for me...
theres no any...
but expensive but sucks will do..
(despite fast foods...is it healthy???)

to someone: through some conversation today and some of my determination... i knew that you are not happy recently...i'm wondering to ask u about..but lastly i didn't..since i'm afraid it will reveal any pain of u...since somone'd hurted u so bad...and glad Aaron is with you...throughout the hardest time...and though i'm not really clear bout what's actually happened and since it's the secret between you and him...but i think...everything will going to be alright...time can proof it...as if u feel like pour it out..ya you can always come to us...despite ur family which staying far away from you and across the sea...and here we are ur family...you know..we love you =)

p/s: there's always different wave in our life... we may happy and may be depressed.. but most of the time we will well-remembered those unhappy moment..compare to the happy times we had.. for me..i think it in this way...since happy and sad is big contrast as black and white always do...how about if there's no sadness where comes the happiness? as there's no black...we'll never know how bright is the white is or can be...as you blame for don't having enough foot-wears...why don't you think about some people that have no leg?
*ask yourself*

i'm not daring to spell the love out to you...because i'm so unsure that feeling... i dont know whether it is love or like.. what i heard was if you like to spend time with her and will not jealous while she is with the other guy is LIKE...and love is more to conquer..is it? i would like to choose to love you but i don't feel like conquer you...just that you happy...if there's someone can give you more happiness and well to spend time with and u wanted to go for him..for me is fine...u know i don't like to force anyone...and you don't like being force too! you are not passive type.. and hence it confused me sometimes...and i'm not daring to do anything before your action...i'm not said as fell deeply but im just tend to come for you. this what i feel inside...

2008-10-13T12:18:00.001-07:00

monday!!

i late!!

haha...

sorry Eric!!!~Xp

homewrk alot la..

hellya!!!

yesterday was totally sleepy...

and rush homeworks~ nothing special...

I got my new bag...

its a light brown and can fit in a3 sized paper!!!

its exactly what i wanted!!!

thanks mum~

did chated alot with my parents on the way going to my college..
mum sudd asked..

do u hate i mumbling u? annoying?

i was like..

i only see u once a week k?

wont la of course..

if can i rather u mumble..

i love the way u mumble me!!!!..Xp

miss u la mum...

if most of the topic cannot open among family member...

its no longer warm nor close...

appreciate what you are having...

if i hate u..

i won't b your son...

at the other corner of the world...

theres child tat lost their parents or being left...

so how u think?

Eric class~
today lesson was all bout ROOF~

types~

haha...

ended earlier again...

Eric: saturday no class..

SAT NO CLASS? IS IT?
( I was so happy at the time...since can spend more days at home...ahha)

no..

he mean no class for him la!!
lol~

blur~

since there stil plenty of hours to wait for the 2nd replace class for interior visual 1...

we went Ichiban Ramen...

look at the menu...

the price is killing me..

lol...

it seems more like a trap....

since theres no any menu infront of the shop..

lol~

never mind...
fine~

suddenly...

someone found a set of meal...

its included soup...

green tea...

watermelon...

fried chicken pieces....

fried rice!!!!

wow...

its only 11(not included tax....)

so..

guess wad?

all of us ordered almost the same set..

only kate stick wif her beef rice set...

"wei wei wei cooperate bit la you~!" haha...XP

-cat eat beef-

this is the 2 gigantic slice of water melon on each plate....

katrine: ei ei did u smell perfume on the watermelon?

ken: gucci....

lol..

wondering is it its really perfume?

but if also...

it already too late...

since it is digesting in our stomach...

and you only can sing....

a single sentece from the APOLOGIZE lyrics...

(its too late...)

haha...LAME!!!

while having the meal...

kate: ei ferri's skin so fair!!

(sk-II or olay skin whitenning?)

ferri: biorey...

ken:....

stell: i hate tasteless-ness of watermelon.

mum: i hate to have watermelon...since there were seeds...i rather choose fruits that can straightaway swallow down..

kate: i like watermelon..because ITS RED!

(for ur info..she is craze with red~lol)

all: ....

then we headed to popular and mph...

since some of us seeking for some books...

went block M after that...

"mum" was so moody for no reason..

hope she is still ok...

haha...

firstly i thought she got quarrel with her bf..

but its not..

jus moody for no reason la...

maybe too tired?who knows?

everyone will be that sometimes right?

(U HAVE TO AGREE!HAHA)

2 oclock...

we went sio yan class..

at studio art block M....

the block wic quite far away from t.o.a main block..

its a new block...

and its still under a little renovation...

tis place is cool~

having the statues of human in any angle nor post~

having the not all but most of the light equipment wic needed for chou xiang hua(drawing)

photo taking section~

lol..

again...

haha...

(pics)

its kind of fun today...

but its tiring la...

after class..

can see that some of us is like..

half closed their eyes..

even though some is opened their eyes wide and big...

but eye bags...

wow..its looks like being punched~

Xp aix..

seems so stress..

add oil ba!

-ALL THE BEST FOR TOMORROW EXAM-

though from the outside...i seems noisy laugh alot...but...from the inside...it doesn't in that way...just feel hollow inside..something is missing...i need ur care...can u?

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Malaysia is a peaceful country. KL is a heaven.

take time to realize

wake up friend

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WTF

Friend is like a mirror

valentines day

Gaming is so FUN!!!!!

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Last words

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What a schedule

you made my year!

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